You know...I've been thinking (always dangerous). I really don't think I'm happy right now, or satisfied with my life. I think it's been like this awhile. I don't know. Well, I'm thinking seriously about going to the school psychologist. Weird. I've never done anything like that before. I've always figured to help myself out. But maybe it's a good ( Read more... )

One person should not have this much hate in them! It is unhealthy. I keep telling myself it's not my fault, which is technically true, but I need to quit with learned helplessness or I'll develop an external locus of control and die of a heart problem ( Read more... )

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I got SO MUCH sleep over the weekend. No joke, it was frickin' amazing. I'm so rested, I feel ready to like take on the world or something. But not run a marathon, because that would suck.

And in case you were curious, California was AMAZING. Well, being with J.T. was anyway.

Apparently I just don't know my math. My SAT math scores were way low. Like way below average. Like pathetic. AKA, none of the schools I really like will want me and I'm going to end up at fucking SOU.

FUCK.

I am so excited to get my senior pictures! I think I'll wear my shortish magenta dress, my orange sweater with my good jeans, and my long yellow shirt with walking shorts. I'm getting them on the 12th. yargh. I can't decide if I should get a root touchup or not. You can barely see them and I'm, trying to save money, but I DO want them to look ( Read more... )

So I my mom's going through some old photos we had in the attic. For the first time ever, I saw a picture of my grandmother. (my dad's mother, who died long before I was born.) I had no idea she was so incredibly beautiful. I mean seriously. I want to make a copy from the negative and frame it. And you know what the really cool part is? I look SO ( Read more... )

California was beautiful and wonderful. I'm sick in a dozen different ways. I'm busy packing for COVE wchich is tomorrow so I'll write more when I get home. Guess, I'll see you in August.

I'm leaving for California in about 7 hours! I'm so excited!

On a side note, god damn, it is SO HOT today. And I'm sure it will be twice as bad in San Diego, but I don't care.

I've got a rash on my arms. It's really itchy. I think it might be on my legs too, but not as severe. It's been there for a few days and is driving me crazy. I woke up at 6 this morning scratching like crazy and eventually had to get out of bed to get some aloe. It's either a) heat rash or b) an allergic reaction. I think maybe to rite aid brand ( Read more... )