Depression is for the person who wants to know right now what will learn!
Wow, I love the nonsense subject title, I just googled myself to create from various sources.
Other than that, I am having a huge depression. It started from shortly after my last update. In just two hours, many of my most well regarded friends achieved to say or do things, that really either saddened me or pissed me off. I realised how far I was ( Read more... )
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No matter how successful I am...or not...
The blackness returns
Full of futility, each repetition
In frustration it builds,
Breaking though barriers
My father is dieing
and I can do nothing
I'm no comfort to my mother
I am in a relationship...thankfully
But it is not enough...sometimes
What is it that can fix my brain chemistry
To keep me
Far from the black dog
Barking
Sharing
Understanding
Relating
Each
to
Another
Until the chemistry shifts
Once more
Into the light
Of another day!
I have for years been that person people turn to with problems...the smile, the joke
I wrote a poem at the time of my last trip down the dark lane
Who comforts the comforter
The answer is as always reach out and someone will help.
Even if it is ehelp
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So let me tell you
of my poetry
How my words may be wielded
Like a sharpened sickle
Scything, cutting
Reaping or winnowing
My mind provides the pasture
My witt becomes the sickle
For poety
My crop
Many peoples words
soften their ideas
Becoming blunt
To loose their edge
But Not I
With less comes more
Much more effective
leaving space between
Room for understanding
My mind provides the pasture
My witt becomes the sickle
For poety
My crop
Not everything is worthy
Yet much seems the same
In one harvest
From the same Pasture
My mind
Poetry
My crop
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my reason for getting out of bed in the morning exited my life yesterday, after two years. and pretty much, I haven't felt this shitty...in...oh, five years. I'm waiting for a reason.
but in the meantime, self-destructive.
three beers and two cigarettes later, I'm still convinced either
a) we're already in hell or purgatory and are being punished for past lives
or
b) life is taking too damn long.
shitty days all around.
big hugs (((()))))
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It's amazing that the world still goes round with all that, eh?
The only thing that matters is your own work. It's about achieving something good. Why not pick up all your pieces and write a really good assignment or improve your position in your party or something of this kind?
May I ask what is the name of that Italian girl?
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Oh, and did you get my reference to The Long Hello, that was meant for you. As I figured you (as a Van Der Graaf Generator fan) would know them.
Her name is Ambra....
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Javisst ja känner Long Hello, men jag har aldrig lyssnat på dem. De är VdGG utan PH? Låter de bra?
Ja frågade om hennes namn eftersom jag hade en bekant, en tjej från Italien, som hade liknande åsikter.
Ha det så bra ! Och var inte alltför ledsen om Sevi.
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Jeg er altid "ledsen" om Sevi, jeg har jo kendt hende i snart 6 år, og hun har altid været den eneste kvinde, som rent faktisk var interesseret i mig...
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You are a very rare and beautiful person. I hope that some day you realise this and stop letting people tramp all over your feelings and get you down.
In the meantime, keep listening to music that makes you happy :)
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