I am making many new friends from going to BBQ's and birthday parties and weddings and shit. It makes me happy to be doing the whole getting to know you thing and having all these people who want to talk to me ( Read more... )

why is he so weak? why can't he try? depression, joy, disappointment, hope - nothing is real. it's all just manufactured calculated words and behaviors meant to conceal the truth. what do you have to hide? everything. right. i wonder if he'll ever change ( Read more... )

Vacation was a smashing success.
My mood has shifted 180 degrees.
I feel like singing at the top of my lungs and giving everyone I meet hugs.
I want to call up all the people I've been neglecting and shock them with my enthusiasm.
We shall all love each other and it will be gay and delightful.

Nicky, I'm coming home for Mom's birthday. I can't believe you are 20 now. You're so old. Stop getting old. It's not cool. You want to be cool don't you? :P

Finally a good mood.

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Here's a taste of what I've been reading lately:

"Still not dead," she said. She had greeted him with these words each time she woke during the past few days. At first the words had seemed whimsical or ironic to him, but now he knew that she spoke with disappointment. She longed for death now, not because she ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I'm searching for something that doesn't exist anymore and then I get really fucking depressed.

"You tried your best, and you failed miserably. The lesson is: Never try."
- Homer Simpson

I haven't talked about this guy much, mostly because I don't know exactly what to say or how I feel.

On Dec. 19th, 2003 He sent me this quote,
Susan Orlean: "Do you ever get lonely sometimes Johnny ( Read more... )

I can't remember being this devoid of motivation.

I don't have the energy or will to do anything, yet I am simultaneously filled with an intense desire to do somethingPart of me is going stir-crazy while the other part just wants to stay in my half-naked state and never leave the house. I want to be surrounded by warm bodies. I want ten or ( Read more... )

My little brother can beat me at Tetris. I'm so proud of him I could cry.
In the end we ended up tying two matches to two.
Each match is a best of 7.

Too bad I still school him at SFII Turbo Puzzle Fighter.
Someday I will teach him how to match colors.
Oh and while watching me vs. Viet my bro said, "Oh my god you're a machine." Whee.