smoke a joke blunt with him,
text about your dying grandmother.
i’ve never felt so relatively sorta kinda sorry.
take a fake hit so you look at me.
write it down at night,
and laugh at his impression.
hide away with me,
cause it makes me feel wanted.
hope you stick by my side,
or at least join it occasionally.
smooth my hair back and grin,
so cheesy.
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my motivations are strapped to a sinking stone
just like that, they’re gone.
just like that, i’m hiding in my hair again.
they say it comes in waves, but mine comes like a scrappy dog that shreds the flesh.
one that’s been waiting behind a fence.
“beware of the dog.”
teeth sink into my leg.
stabilize this dying creature i’ve become.
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sign into the splendor like it bleeds out of you
glorious colors spill from the sound
and nightly moons kiss me through the window
i do believe that promises are just your way of securing the safety of the lost
that’s alright by me
sip from a glass of joy and bask in it
because light is like a relief from a headache you’ve had for two and a half years

we fuck around like fools
you look at us like you’re so much better
your god is a plastic doll
stick your face in a shredder

i double-devil down in anger
mess with him because you want to
sew your eyes shut
fingers plastered to internet glue

hate me now?
god, just you wait
script out the perfect bitch list
just about sealed your fate

crimson red ideals
laugh ( Read more... )

switch of the blade is to the scrape of the scissors
boredom kills as much as the self hatred
have we forgotten the color turquoise?
i believe we have,
because what is life without a babysitter or a daycare?
occupy your time. (trust me.)
swim in the puddle of hours
or drown in them.
waves of wavering stability.
those kids, these holes in my clothes.
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i can’t let a withering twisted root trap my head.
a fool i will become if i capitulate to the angry vine that snaps towards me.

a trip to the beach.

bequeath the love to someone like your mother.
float upon her words until you enter this uneasy city.

a walk in the woods.

notice how there’s no bright soul to look back at when i make a mistake.
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he’s become this worn out shirt.
dulled and stretched.
faded gray and stitches growing tired.
here’s to my night time tee,
for when i’m feeling particularly desirous.
even the fabric sighs
when i pull on this played out garment.
he’s stuck within every detail of this glorified pull over.

enough of the “he” more of the “you”.
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a single tear marks my face
like a soldier returning wordlessly, solemnly.

i curse the god that tore you from me.
took you to a city where you would forget our secret language.

how is your older brother?
i haven’t seen him in so long that i believe he is frozen at this age. forever this introverted, and loving ghost.

does your sister still try everything
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i’m addicted to moonlight sadness, the same way some live and die for cigarettes.

if we are made with stardust,
how come you stare at the stars above like such foreign strangers?

rather than distant cousins
beaming for someone unknown.

the sinking feeling in my chest comes along familiarly each night.
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i miss the rush of love
i string my heart along the wall with these words
pinpoint the best and worst
some sort of visual to map it out

wishes in the well
‘i’ll give you everything if you just look at me this way tonight’
i wanted to tell you

courage dropped in a piggy bank
when i finally shattered it,
you said nothing.

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