Should stay off Pandora showtune classics. Why were we going to see so many musicals? Oh, bc u were GAY. Still are.  Case and fucking point, dead guy. Your dad called me last night. He still told me a few jokes the same way he did before you hanged yourself. I didn't share any of my new jokes. Lil dark for anyone other than Ean so far. Alright ( Read more... )

Yup. Legit passed out by 9pm last night...a combo of 3 hours of sleep, bein awake and manic since like 7am, booze and sedatives. Woke up around 1am...lights and tv blasting...and I'd somehow swaddled myself in my comforter. lol ( Read more... )

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Another throwback...this song def saved my life a few times when I first starting getting the onset of my mental issues.

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Ok, get ready for a lot of what I am going to call throwbacks. lol...like a fuckin tool. Sooo long ago...when i was 12 after the very first time i tried to kill myself this was my shit. I dunno. How i felt about my friends when i came back to school changed...and of course how they felt about me and there was a lot of elementry school drama... ( Read more... )

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A throwback to when Sonia died...I killed this one. And I think I played it for her parents on her Birthday the next year.

Two lonely people...got together and felt a little better. But it wasn't good enough...it wasn't long enough. One lonely person...again, left alone.

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Sonia's family's dog Davey got put down yesterday. After they spent a ton on something they were told would give him another year. fuck. this. world. FUCK IT ( Read more... )

so i have to keep telling myself i love the kitten. yeah, i love maxine...i love her...so i won't kill her ( Read more... )

if this is our last day together...i don't even know. I keep wanting just one more night of you sleeping on my feet. just one more morning of waking up to you staring at me 3 inches from my face. one more afternoon where i come home and you run to the door as though i'd been gone for years ( Read more... )

Moby ( Read more... )