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I’ve never been much of a conformist. I have always resisted rules of any kind, hate being told what to do or even how to do something, and am much more likely to research information to find out how to do something rather then simply asking someone who knows how to do whatever it is I’m trying to do.
While I carried a near perfect GPA in school I never got along with my teachers. I can’t stand working for other people, which is why I am a stay at home dad now and many of our laws do nothing more then piss me off. I don’t know why I am this way and really don’t like being this way. It just seems to be the way I’m wired. It has always caused me issues in one way or the other. I tend to be out spoken about things which often upset people. I am more then willing to speak the hard truths that others don’t want to hear. I also tend to not like things that fall into the mainstream. If everyone else thinks it is the best thing since sliced bread I will tend to dislike it, often with no real reason. This happens a lot with movies and music. I was this way as a teen which really limited the number and type of friends I had. On the plus side this has saved me from some really dumb things like smoking. That’s just one of those things that people do to “try” to look cool. To me it just shows how low you will sink to try and make other people think you fit in.
But it has also made me do some dumb things as well. Take my dogs for example. As soon as I knew they might be a problem at the last place I lived I should have found them a new home or done whatever I needed to do to make sure they were not the issue they became. But, me being me, when it became clear they were going to be an issue I said “fuck those people” and tried to fight back. No one was going to make me do anything I did not decide to do on my own. So, I ended up moving. But it was my choice, sort of anyway. So now I still have the dogs and I really should give them up. We are in a new place where they have already become a small problem, but only on my end really. And now we have another baby on the way I will have even less time to devote to them. But the more people point out that I should let them go the more I try to hang onto them. In all honesty I have tried to find them new homes. I have posted in a number of places about them in the hopes of finding them both a new and loving owner. But everything has fallen through.
I have come to understand that people in the south treat their dogs like shit. They keep them out in the yard all year long or let them run the streets. They are covered in fleas and are often beat for little to no reason. And where both of our dogs are big dogs, the small one is 65 lbs.; they NEED to be indoor pets, family members really. So every time I tell people that these dogs need to be indoor pets I never hear from them again. This would not be such an issue if I was back in Baltimore but I’m not so I am at a loss as to what to do.
Beauty has issues and will be put to sleep if I take her to the pound. And Fenris may or may not find a home and that home may or may not be a good one. I want them both to have a good life but I just can not keep them any longer. And Nashville just does not have any no-kill shelters. Please no one point me to happy tails, they are a joke. And all this drama because I love my pets and can’t do what I know needs to be done because everyone around is telling me to do it. I got to go the long and hard road every time and make things so difficult. And hanging on my decision is the lives of these two dogs. One only a puppy who really just wants to hang out with his humans and may be the best dog I have ever owned and the other has been abused all her life. This is the first “happy” home she has ever known and if I take her to the pound I will be sending her to her death. What’s a rule hating non-conformist, animal lover to do.
Maybe I could drive them to Baltimore...