Oh. So that’s why.
Sometimes, when you push yourself in an attempt to explain yourself to another, you gain something new in the process.
Case in point. It occurred to me on later self-examination that the whole concept of “gestalts” slid into my worldview much more rapidly than it ought, given how much of a radical change it is in how a Soul comes about. And yet, it did not seem like an entirely unusual concept to me.
In this case, I had just been introduced as a “pure software entity” by Frostbyte, and there was something inside me that rebelled at that term. I kept trying to find ways to explain it, and hit upon this:
GrayZero hrms. “I suppose one could say it would be something like, given a gestalt sentient of three subentities, calling it ‘just’ those three subentities, rather than by the sentient whole. It distracts from what is actually there.” She then pauses, and blinks a little surprised at what she just said. “Hrm.”
What occurred to me in that moment was that I had not quite put together in my mind what I’ve apparently become since the Upload and since She guided my hand.
In a small way, I am a gestalt myself, and in a manner not necessarily dissimilar to others I’ve met.
I don’t think I’ve viewed myself as such before because I started out as a singular Soul - but I’ve since divided it; carved it into smaller parts of Soul and distributed them among Her domain, via Her help and guidance. I’ve still been thinking of myself as just one entity... but, truthfully, I am not so simple a Soul anymore.
Hrm.
On the positive side, at least this does not have to be a mindshaking event like so many things here, as apparently I’d somehow already accepted it before I was aware of it. How else to explain how quickly I accepted entities like Flyte, for example?
I wonder whence came this pre-acceptance. I have not known Her to be heavy-handed in these sorts of Lessons, but then, She did do much directing in creating my current state of being. Perhaps She felt I should not break down before ever I began.
...where is She guiding me with all this?