ooc: Sexuality, etc
The Easy Part
What is your ...
Ⅰ Name: Suika Ibuki
Ⅱ Age: ... I don't remember. Over 2000 or so?
Ⅲ Sex: Female
Ⅳ Gender Identity: Female, definitely female.
Ⅴ Sexual Orientation: I guess the term for it is 'bisexual' but it's more I just don't really care...
The Functional Part
Ⅵ Let’s talk virginity. Have you lost yours? If yes, how was the experience? If no, how do you feel about it?
I'm
not a virgin anymore but... I didn't really enjoy the first time.
Though I guess a lot of people wouldn't, having to be on the receiving
end of a male oni... they're uh... they're not made to be lovers,
they're made to be fighters. And it shows.
Ⅶ Are you sexually active? How much so? Are you comfortable with your level of sexual activity?
I
wasn't really before coming to Ukiyo. Never really interested me... and
I can't say I'm as comfortable with it now as I could be because a lot
of it's been... affected by something outside. Yanno? It wasn't entirely
my choice to be so turned on; chocolates or... something in the air. It
was all mostly that before.
Ⅷ Do you masturbate? How often and, if applicable, to what?
Not really. I'm not really in the mood all that often, and if I am it's usually when everyone else is being affected or...
... Well I can get help any way.
Ⅸ
Promiscuity: How many sexual partners have you had? Ideally, would you
get around more/less if you could? Do you have strong feelings about
others’ promiscuity/lack thereof?
Lessee...
before Ukiyo it was exactly six partners. Over two thousand years.
Since I can't really say I have much of like... a sex drive, I don't
really care if there were more than that. Could hardly get any less, either.
But...
the question about promiscuity... that's not a nice place to be. My mom
abandoned me because of it... she'd rather be off with the boys than
raising a kid, so... I can't say I like the idea. And a lot of blood has
been shed by me to solidify that.
Ⅹ Safe sex: Do you practice it? Do you know how?
Well...
I'm well beyond the age of breeding and... human diseases don't really
transfer to youkai so... there's not much of a point to it.
Ⅺ
Do you now have or have you ever had an STD? Have you ever gotten or
gotten someone else pregnant? If yes to either, how did this affect you?
How anxious do these risks make you about sex?
No and no. Thankfully on the second part yeah? [A giggle] I'd be a bad mom.
Ⅻ Let’s be frank: How good are you in bed? How good do you think you are? How comfortable are you with your sexual performance?
[NERVOUS. LAUGH.] ... If someone says I'm really all that great I'd be surprised. I don't... really have a lot of confidence there. So... I can't say I really think I'm that great.
The Fantasy Part
ⅩⅢ Physically speaking, what do you find attractive in a potential sex partner?
I... don't really think I put a lot of thought into it.
ⅩⅣ What about mentally/emotionally? What kind of attitude or personality turns you on? Why?
Well... gods I hate to admit this Someone
that understands that... I don't really... do this a lot. Yanno? And
someone willing to work at my pace for this because I... I have a hard
time a lot of the time. None of it comes all that naturally to me. So...
a lot of patience. Someone that'll care about how I feel about it, too
and that... understands the barriers there.
... Oh and anyone that can hold their alcohol. It's not often someone can keep pace, let alone beat me. I love that!
ⅩⅤ Do you prefer to be on the top or the bottom
or neither? Are you generally dominant, submissive, or neither? How
does this relate to your personality out of bed, if at all?
[THIS
IS THE MOST EMBARRASSING QUESTION OH GOD] Oh um... well... I'm usually
so... afraid of hurting someone and lack so much confidence in my skills
there it sort of leads to me being 'bottom' by nature. But... more than
that I guess... and I bet the rest of the oni would really look down on
me for saying this but...
... I've had to be the dominant one
most of my life. I am a Deva of the Mountain, most powerful and rulers
of the oni! And in my strength, I don't lack any confidence. In my
power? I know I'm a huge threat to just about anything and everything
walking around, under or above the surface. I'm an oni, a powerful one
at that, and I do take a lot of pride in that.
But... I kinda
like giving that all up when in bed. Not the oni part obviously, but the
aggression and the dominance. I guess there's something I really like
about trusting in someone enough to let them see that side. I don't do
it often, and I won't do it for just anyone, but... there's a few people
out there that have seen that part of me completely and... I guess I'm
alright with it.
Can I stop answering this questionnaire now?
ⅩⅥ
How important is your partner’s satisfaction to you and why? Are you
needy/demanding/giving/etc.? Is romance or emotional connection
important to you in sex?
...
Uh... gods I don't know how to answer that. I mean, I have to say that
it's no good if the other person doesn't at least take some kind of
satisfaction out of it... if I didn't think about that I'd be no better
than one of the men but... I dunno. I find it kinda... h-hard to take
initiative so I wonder if I don't leave the-
Anyway uh. I can
understand sex as just a kind of... thing people do. Like... there
doesn't have to be an emotional or any other kind of connection between
two people to do it, but I... I rather like to think I know someone and
trust them before I do that. I mean... it-it... k-kinda goes back to
what I was saying about being submissive in bed...
ⅩⅦ
Are you vanilla or kinky? If the former, how comfortable with/aware of
non-vanilla sex are you? If the latter, what are your major kinks? How
did you discover them, and how do you feel about them?
... Uh... 'vanilla?' Don't
let the chains fool you I... don't actually like being tied down. That
just brings out my survival instinct to fight with you and... no one
wants that. But I know there's a lot of things out there - some of it
really weird - that people are into. And there's a few things I've...
heard of... that I guess if someone I really liked was into I wouldn't
mind trying out but...
... Oh right ... I guess that part where I like to bite isn't really 'vanilla', though.
Um I-... I kinda get really turned on by the taste of blood. Especially
human blood. But I hate hurting people I'm with so I-... I don't
really... do it. Ever. [She is getting steadily more unnerved the more
of this she has to answer, boss :\b Being an oni sucks when it comes to things like this; but she must be truthful!]
ⅩⅧ What turns you off? Why?
Um... well I can't really say a lot of things cuz a lot of things also don't turn me on that should... I-I dunno.
ⅩⅨ How active is your fantasy life? How often/how vividly do you fantasize about sex? Describe a fantasy situation for you.
No I-... I really don't. And I can't think of anything off the top of my head.
Some Gritty Details Part
ⅩⅩ
Talk about your sexual awakening. How old were you when it happened?
Who/what was the first thing that aroused you? How did it affect you
emotionally?
I
don't think I really ever had one... one day it was decided I needed to
produce an heir, and only the strongest of the men would do. I don't
know if I was really ready for it, but... convention meant I didn't get
much of a choice. So here I am.
ⅩⅪ Have you ever done/fantasized about anything sexually that you’re earnestly ashamed of? What was it? Would you do it again?
I don't... really fantasize and I've gotten so little experience I can't really answer the question...
ⅩⅫ Have you ever committed a sex crime? Have you ever been the victim of one? In either case, if yes, how did this affect you?
No
and... no. The closest time someone ever got to starting to get
forceful with me I killed him, gutted him, stuck his head on a pike and
rolled his body off the mountain... And that wasn't even really into the
realm of really bad stuff I know other people have had to go through;
that all happened the moment I started getting uncomfortable with the
situation... I'm lucky I didn't have to experience it going any further.
ⅩⅩⅢ
Is there anything about your sex life or sexual preferences that you
would never tell anyone? How sexually open/repressed are you in general?
Why?
...
Not really. It's not that I am secretly like... really kinky or into it
or something and am trying to save face. This really is just how I
am... I've got like no sex drive, so there's really... nothing to see.
ⅩⅩⅣ
How do you feel about sex, morally speaking? Beyond the basics, are
there any sexual areas - homosexuality, prostitution, whatever - that
you have strong, moral reactions to? Where do those come from?
The
problems I have with it are my own, really. And usually only pertain
when they're directed at me; what other people do? That's up to them.
Hell, I'll even use it to make fun of you~ [She giggles]
But
there's two things; One? I don't care if you experiment, sleep around,
do what you will; that's how you learn what you like and what you want,
right? But once you find that thing, that someone you want... more than
anything else... and you decide to hold onto them.... never let them go.
Don't go into anything unless your mind is a hundred percent made up.
And if you're on the outside? Don't try to get in. I won't ever touch
anyone else's mate. I'd hope they'd do the same for me.
I won't
get into my issues with having children... especially outside of a
committed relationship... I'm a bastard child myself. Abandoned at the
foot of Mount Ibuki as a baby, raised by a temple... and I did a lot of
awful things because of those things. Because my parents... my mother,
really, since she never really knew who my father was, decided her life
of debauchery was of more importance than another life, I had to deal
with that, and I grew up resenting her for it. And when I found her
again... I killed her. In the long run... was the sex so worth it? I
never got to ask her that question. Was it worth making someone else
suffer?
I'm assuming the 'beyond the basics' thing covers force
and nonconsensual stuff, so I don't think I need to say anything there
besides of course I've got a problem with those things. Who wouldn't?
ⅩⅩⅤ If you could change one thing about your sex life, would you, what would it be, and why?
I think...
...
I think I'd make it so that I never fell into convention of needing to
produce an heir. I would've fought it harder so that I could've had
longer to get ready and... I think I would've defied the 'needs to be
the strongest' as well. Maybe if the experiences were a little better
from the start, I wouldn't have had some of the problems I do now.
What is your ...
Ⅰ Name: Suika Ibuki
Ⅱ Age: ... I don't remember. Over 2000 or so?
Ⅲ Sex: Female
Ⅳ Gender Identity: Female, definitely female.
Ⅴ Sexual Orientation: I guess the term for it is 'bisexual' but it's more I just don't really care...
The Functional Part
Ⅵ Let’s talk virginity. Have you lost yours? If yes, how was the experience? If no, how do you feel about it?
I'm
not a virgin anymore but... I didn't really enjoy the first time.
Though I guess a lot of people wouldn't, having to be on the receiving
end of a male oni... they're uh... they're not made to be lovers,
they're made to be fighters. And it shows.
Ⅶ Are you sexually active? How much so? Are you comfortable with your level of sexual activity?
I
wasn't really before coming to Ukiyo. Never really interested me... and
I can't say I'm as comfortable with it now as I could be because a lot
of it's been... affected by something outside. Yanno? It wasn't entirely
my choice to be so turned on; chocolates or... something in the air. It
was all mostly that before.
Ⅷ Do you masturbate? How often and, if applicable, to what?
Not really. I'm not really in the mood all that often, and if I am it's usually when everyone else is being affected or...
... Well I can get help any way.
Ⅸ
Promiscuity: How many sexual partners have you had? Ideally, would you
get around more/less if you could? Do you have strong feelings about
others’ promiscuity/lack thereof?
Lessee...
before Ukiyo it was exactly six partners. Over two thousand years.
Since I can't really say I have much of like... a sex drive, I don't
really care if there were more than that. Could hardly get any less, either.
But...
the question about promiscuity... that's not a nice place to be. My mom
abandoned me because of it... she'd rather be off with the boys than
raising a kid, so... I can't say I like the idea. And a lot of blood has
been shed by me to solidify that.
Ⅹ Safe sex: Do you practice it? Do you know how?
Well...
I'm well beyond the age of breeding and... human diseases don't really
transfer to youkai so... there's not much of a point to it.
Ⅺ
Do you now have or have you ever had an STD? Have you ever gotten or
gotten someone else pregnant? If yes to either, how did this affect you?
How anxious do these risks make you about sex?
No and no. Thankfully on the second part yeah? [A giggle] I'd be a bad mom.
Ⅻ Let’s be frank: How good are you in bed? How good do you think you are? How comfortable are you with your sexual performance?
[NERVOUS. LAUGH.] ... If someone says I'm really all that great I'd be surprised. I don't... really have a lot of confidence there. So... I can't say I really think I'm that great.
The Fantasy Part
ⅩⅢ Physically speaking, what do you find attractive in a potential sex partner?
I... don't really think I put a lot of thought into it.
ⅩⅣ What about mentally/emotionally? What kind of attitude or personality turns you on? Why?
Well... gods I hate to admit this Someone
that understands that... I don't really... do this a lot. Yanno? And
someone willing to work at my pace for this because I... I have a hard
time a lot of the time. None of it comes all that naturally to me. So...
a lot of patience. Someone that'll care about how I feel about it, too
and that... understands the barriers there.
... Oh and anyone that can hold their alcohol. It's not often someone can keep pace, let alone beat me. I love that!
ⅩⅤ Do you prefer to be on the top or the bottom
or neither? Are you generally dominant, submissive, or neither? How
does this relate to your personality out of bed, if at all?
[THIS
IS THE MOST EMBARRASSING QUESTION OH GOD] Oh um... well... I'm usually
so... afraid of hurting someone and lack so much confidence in my skills
there it sort of leads to me being 'bottom' by nature. But... more than
that I guess... and I bet the rest of the oni would really look down on
me for saying this but...
... I've had to be the dominant one
most of my life. I am a Deva of the Mountain, most powerful and rulers
of the oni! And in my strength, I don't lack any confidence. In my
power? I know I'm a huge threat to just about anything and everything
walking around, under or above the surface. I'm an oni, a powerful one
at that, and I do take a lot of pride in that.
But... I kinda
like giving that all up when in bed. Not the oni part obviously, but the
aggression and the dominance. I guess there's something I really like
about trusting in someone enough to let them see that side. I don't do
it often, and I won't do it for just anyone, but... there's a few people
out there that have seen that part of me completely and... I guess I'm
alright with it.
Can I stop answering this questionnaire now?
ⅩⅥ
How important is your partner’s satisfaction to you and why? Are you
needy/demanding/giving/etc.? Is romance or emotional connection
important to you in sex?
...
Uh... gods I don't know how to answer that. I mean, I have to say that
it's no good if the other person doesn't at least take some kind of
satisfaction out of it... if I didn't think about that I'd be no better
than one of the men but... I dunno. I find it kinda... h-hard to take
initiative so I wonder if I don't leave the-
Anyway uh. I can
understand sex as just a kind of... thing people do. Like... there
doesn't have to be an emotional or any other kind of connection between
two people to do it, but I... I rather like to think I know someone and
trust them before I do that. I mean... it-it... k-kinda goes back to
what I was saying about being submissive in bed...
ⅩⅦ
Are you vanilla or kinky? If the former, how comfortable with/aware of
non-vanilla sex are you? If the latter, what are your major kinks? How
did you discover them, and how do you feel about them?
... Uh... 'vanilla?' Don't
let the chains fool you I... don't actually like being tied down. That
just brings out my survival instinct to fight with you and... no one
wants that. But I know there's a lot of things out there - some of it
really weird - that people are into. And there's a few things I've...
heard of... that I guess if someone I really liked was into I wouldn't
mind trying out but...
... Oh right ... I guess that part where I like to bite isn't really 'vanilla', though.
Um I-... I kinda get really turned on by the taste of blood. Especially
human blood. But I hate hurting people I'm with so I-... I don't
really... do it. Ever. [She is getting steadily more unnerved the more
of this she has to answer, boss :\b Being an oni sucks when it comes to things like this; but she must be truthful!]
ⅩⅧ What turns you off? Why?
Um... well I can't really say a lot of things cuz a lot of things also don't turn me on that should... I-I dunno.
ⅩⅨ How active is your fantasy life? How often/how vividly do you fantasize about sex? Describe a fantasy situation for you.
No I-... I really don't. And I can't think of anything off the top of my head.
Some Gritty Details Part
ⅩⅩ
Talk about your sexual awakening. How old were you when it happened?
Who/what was the first thing that aroused you? How did it affect you
emotionally?
I
don't think I really ever had one... one day it was decided I needed to
produce an heir, and only the strongest of the men would do. I don't
know if I was really ready for it, but... convention meant I didn't get
much of a choice. So here I am.
ⅩⅪ Have you ever done/fantasized about anything sexually that you’re earnestly ashamed of? What was it? Would you do it again?
I don't... really fantasize and I've gotten so little experience I can't really answer the question...
ⅩⅫ Have you ever committed a sex crime? Have you ever been the victim of one? In either case, if yes, how did this affect you?
No
and... no. The closest time someone ever got to starting to get
forceful with me I killed him, gutted him, stuck his head on a pike and
rolled his body off the mountain... And that wasn't even really into the
realm of really bad stuff I know other people have had to go through;
that all happened the moment I started getting uncomfortable with the
situation... I'm lucky I didn't have to experience it going any further.
ⅩⅩⅢ
Is there anything about your sex life or sexual preferences that you
would never tell anyone? How sexually open/repressed are you in general?
Why?
...
Not really. It's not that I am secretly like... really kinky or into it
or something and am trying to save face. This really is just how I
am... I've got like no sex drive, so there's really... nothing to see.
ⅩⅩⅣ
How do you feel about sex, morally speaking? Beyond the basics, are
there any sexual areas - homosexuality, prostitution, whatever - that
you have strong, moral reactions to? Where do those come from?
The
problems I have with it are my own, really. And usually only pertain
when they're directed at me; what other people do? That's up to them.
Hell, I'll even use it to make fun of you~ [She giggles]
But
there's two things; One? I don't care if you experiment, sleep around,
do what you will; that's how you learn what you like and what you want,
right? But once you find that thing, that someone you want... more than
anything else... and you decide to hold onto them.... never let them go.
Don't go into anything unless your mind is a hundred percent made up.
And if you're on the outside? Don't try to get in. I won't ever touch
anyone else's mate. I'd hope they'd do the same for me.
I won't
get into my issues with having children... especially outside of a
committed relationship... I'm a bastard child myself. Abandoned at the
foot of Mount Ibuki as a baby, raised by a temple... and I did a lot of
awful things because of those things. Because my parents... my mother,
really, since she never really knew who my father was, decided her life
of debauchery was of more importance than another life, I had to deal
with that, and I grew up resenting her for it. And when I found her
again... I killed her. In the long run... was the sex so worth it? I
never got to ask her that question. Was it worth making someone else
suffer?
I'm assuming the 'beyond the basics' thing covers force
and nonconsensual stuff, so I don't think I need to say anything there
besides of course I've got a problem with those things. Who wouldn't?
ⅩⅩⅤ If you could change one thing about your sex life, would you, what would it be, and why?
I think...
...
I think I'd make it so that I never fell into convention of needing to
produce an heir. I would've fought it harder so that I could've had
longer to get ready and... I think I would've defied the 'needs to be
the strongest' as well. Maybe if the experiences were a little better
from the start, I wouldn't have had some of the problems I do now.