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[green__turtles]

Today I realized how much I have changed.
for the worse.

I need someone to bring Arabella back. I miss the Arabella from summer school or Millikan.

The "sweet innocent self confident" Arabella

The one without the drugs, the alcohol, and the sex.

i miss me.

As the Great Al Cooper says "Once you find the bad road the good road is hard to find"

Well

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[guitargirl0123]

Yeah, my Freshman year I felt the same way. You're growing up, believe it or not. You're getting older. And as you get older, you're going to have more experiences. And you're not "innocent" anymore. Remember the good old days when the 3 Ajar girls would all come over to the Beach House and Cassie would arange all our games, and jail tag, and cops and robbers, and really getting into all those games? Well, times change. Now it's all about the guys, and music and what not. But you don't want to go back to who you used to be. Trust me. You just need to learn that life goes on. And we all did appriciate those wonderful years of innocence, and not knowing about drugs, and sex. And whenever the word "sex" came up, the times when we'd all flip out. Or when we saw people kissing on the movie screen, when we'd close our eyes, because we genuinly weren't interested, and confused. But you're growing up girl! So am I! You're going to have all these new fun experiences. But drugs, alcohol, and sex...Dunno man. If you MUST do it...Don't do it

[green__turtles]

girl you are amazing.

but still. i cant help but think i am a screw up and not want to go back to the good old days.

storey i just need to get away from the stupid scene going on at my school and hang out with some of my real friends who i know i can be myself around.

xoxoxo

[guitargirl0123]

Yeah, I know what you mean. Taking breaks are REALLY important...You don't even know. The "stupid scene" going on at your school, I'm sure isn't that bad. You just think it is. But it's really not. Bad, is what I'm going through now. But bad always gets better. Always. And the people you feel/know you "can't" be yourself around...Fuck them. Honestly. They arn't your friends. If you feel like you need to take another standpoint, opinion, reaction, or for that matter, different personality around people you consider your "friends", clip them. As in, get rid of them. You don't need that in your life.

[a_newescape]

drugs, alcohal, and sex?

[guitargirl0123]

Hah...I'm with you...I didn't know all this is occuring in her life, hah.

[a_newescape]

haha

[green__turtles]

[[major edit for both of you]]

no sex. sex is stupid. everyone just has it and its annoying.

and becca please trust me i do not smoke and wouldnt.

[dsprte_4_a_kiss]

bellaaaa. wow i didn't know you were going through all of this, but then again we haven't talked in a while. i miss that, the millikan days and gs and everything else. i guess it is a part of growing up and sometimes i sit and i think of everything and i wish so much that i could be back at riverside or back millikan and being a kid. i hope you get through it and everything gets better. love you and i hope i see you sometime this summer.
HAHA YESS SUUMMMERRRR. :)