never ever ever ever again.

i promise.

so im done with american idol.
i cant believe chris is gone.
k im gonna cry now. night.

So I realized tonight how much I really do miss him. It sucks. I wish he would come back. I wish Katie would allow it. I'm glad we worked some things out. I'm still not accepting the apologies. I just need to see his face, hear him sing, watch him go crazy. I miss everything so bad. Why do things have to just change for absolutely no reason. Come ( Read more... )

yeah,
well i've been extremely happy, which is wierd for all thats recently happened.
i like being in good moods after your feelings are destroyed.
ahahahhahaha. paybacks a bitch.

so i have a new boy interest and its crazy. idk if i can like him, idk if i want to, but i do. and he makes me smile. and i like it. ;)

Did you know that getting your nipples pierced professionally under the age of 18 is Child Molestment?
I didn't. It made me sad. So I got my nose pierced instead :(

lolz!

so im kim.
and i apparently never liked the beatles.
I'm easy and slutty. i copy people? i want to be like this one girl, who i cant talk about ever. I cut and dont sleep for attention. i cant make eye contact or talk to a person i work with ever again. i need to gain respect and confidence. I have no Idea whats its like to go thru hard shit.
and ( Read more... )

i hate this thing
i hate this thing
i hate this thing
i hate this thing
i hate this thing
i hate being sick
cokewhore.
i hate this thing
i hate him
i hate her more.

no matter what i do,
nor what i say,
i ALWAYS seem to be the one that gets hurt in the end.

i make the bad choices,
which seem good to begin with,
but tear me apart when everything seems to be over.

i'm so fucking good at this.

me and jesse..

back in action? i'm not so sure. he sings to me, sends me silly letters, calls all the time. i dont know what to do! i dont really want to be tied down too much. im comfortable with where i'm at.

help?

you know it really kind of sucks. it sucks that i can never just be satisfied with whats going on in my life. im sick of the acting shit. everything changes so fast. i hate that i have to be alone with you for you to be the kid i know you are. it sucks. sucks sucks sucks. oh well. i guess im not any better than i was before. ill never change.