coping

[greenangel]

My mind works too fast for me to think straight long enough to get my thoughts down. I used to be better at it before, but I'm out of practice with writing so much that it's become a lot more difficult. I should write more often to get back into the swing of it, writing here helps me cope more than just keeping it all to myself

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[the_kitsu]

My comment won't be so long, but I *could* go on forever and ever. From bullying in gr 8, to losing my best friend in high school due to catty girl bullshit. There's the constant wondering why I survived the cancer, and what COULD have been/COULD be if I wasn't disabled. Then there's the frustration of people around me who are physically abled but are wasting their lives away. There was the complete abandonment from my mother a few years ago, the complete loneliness once I moved out due to roommates either always being gone or just not caring about me anymore, to feeling completely useless and needy. Of course the worst that I felt was a culmination of those things and finding out my mom had my cats shot...on my birthday. I honestly could not stop throwing up for weeks unless I took pills or laid down. I've always avoided the idea of anti-depressants because I always figured I could deal with my issues, and my biggest issues are due to physical problems and anti-depressants can't fix my physical problems, but when your body is