Ahh ,.. I can finally say im starting to feel very very content in the fact that Everything is starting to work itself out. Its been a min. a nice challenging struggle.. And thats a daily continous journey of life anyways ( Read more... )

Ahhh the joy.. of typing in my feelings.. in the living room while everyone is in here and just on that note... speaking of everyone.. today was AMAZING.. we went to the Indian trail and walked this mile.. or half mile.. idk.. but it wasnt that long... but shit yea it was beautiful, its just lovely.. getting out into the nature and letting all the ( Read more... )

well.. the holidays were crazy, and exciting and the break with the kids wasnt as bad as i thought it was going to be.,. suprisingly the fighting wasnt between the boys this time just mostly when and if it did happen it was with my son and daughter it was a bit much but it stoped ( Read more... )

Its been a hot minute since i came on here to spill my life.. But it has been an amazing journey..This christmas we celebrated.. Hanukkah and Christmas.. Turned out to be called " Hanumas!! It rocked. We have been lighting the menorah and then on christmas day we opened like a crap load of gifts.. Things have been tight and money has been check to ( Read more... )

Well today I started my period. Sad I was today. I really wanted to be pregnant so bad.It really sucks. I want just one more one miracle child.And it just depresses me something fierce. So since I started my monthly,It took my Lupus pills ( Read more... )

Back again... Its funny how most times i think about writing in my journal.. I just dont pick up a pen and do it anymore. So i found this lovely site again.. Kinda like a blankie that you cant just let go of ( Read more... )

So i can feel a flare comming on so fast its nopt even funny.. Just have to read text from my bf that state he is tired of me thinkin he is doin something behind my back. and comments are supposed to b e totally fine when retarded ass chics leave flirty comments on his page.. like im supposed to be ok with that.. Im thinkin.. we are on the verge of ( Read more... )

to be honest.. im not sure why ... as much as i want to have the most upmost strgon belief my man wont cheat on me. because he said he wouldnt ...my stomach gets sick when i feel like that every woman is just to destroy a good thing ( Read more... )

Its so hard with a lil troop of chillens one who is too little an just learning.. the boy whom gets the short end of the stick and the 4 yr. old who is goin on 50.!! Its insane.. how they need structure, and the summer is commin to a head... an im excited. Even though its crazy...at times the babysittin..Im beginging to think its the only thing is ( Read more... )

If you consider starting your monthly.. on a mon.. a HAPPY DAY .. sure why not..lmao. Oh wow.. so last night slept awesome.. after 2 freakin pain pills finally .. kicked in .. I cried myself to sleep the SLE Lupus.. is and has been KICKIN my ass royally.. and i just cant do much but lay there and cry through the pain ( Read more... )