1. WHAT CUSS WORD DO YOU USE THE MOST? I try not to discriminate, I like them all ( Read more... )

Everything changes, but it never gets better. For every bit of good news, there is twice as much bad. I feel abandoned. I have lost faith in everything I once believed in, including my God. Is this how I'm supposed to be? Just here? I get it now, I understand completely.
Everything changes, but its still the same...

In the past month it seems that nothing good has happend. There's like this black cloud that follows me and Aaron wherever we go and it affects everything. I hate not knowing whats goin to happen. The only good thing I guess is that Aaron and I have realize how much we love each other during all of this. I wish I knew what to do to make all of ( Read more... )

What do you do when you know that no matter what you do, things aren't going to get better? When you know that there is no chance of things turning out the way you want? When you have to be the strong one no matter what? When you know that this could be the last time you get to sleep next to the person you love, not because you don't want to be ( Read more... )

So I finally found out that with one more class this summer, I get to graduate! Only problem now is deciding what to get my bachelor's degree in ( Read more... )

Thanks to the wonderfull world of birth-control my hormones are all out of wack. This causes me extreme anxiety and to worry about things irrationally. Aaron has been wonderful through all of it, he tries to calm me down when he can, and always reassures me that he still loves me and nothing is wrong. But still I worry about things. Stupid ( Read more... )

I have decided today is a day for procrastination. My new job requires me to talk on the phone all day to people who for the most part don't want to be talking to me. I was out with the stomach flu monday night and yesterday, so for now I think its time for a little relaxation and no worrying at the moment. I am excited though cause Kayle and ( Read more... )

Looking back at my weekend it turned out to be really good, but while it was happening it seemed horrible. Friday night was good, Aaron and I hung out with some of his friends and had a lot of fun. During the course of the night a topic was brought up that I had been thinking a lot about in the past few weeks. The topic was children, if I wanted ( Read more... )

So its been like a month since I've been on here. But to catch everyone up I'm still with Aaron, same job, same school, same ole shit... Accept the whole Aaron thing, its never boring ( Read more... )

Its been a long time since I've been on here. And sooo much has happend. Christmas was good except that I spent Christmas eve night in the emergency room with my mom for her shoulder. I thought I was gonna kill a nurse and I think I may have cost her her job for neglect ( Read more... )