This is going to be a long one. I feel like I have a lot of points that are important to make, as much for the sake of me saying them to you to clear my conscience as you hearing them.
First, it seems that you spend a lot of time being upset about people judging you. Not everyone does, you know - take me for example - I don't know that you'll believe me, but I can only hope that you will - when I look at you, I see an utterly beautiful girl who is slowly, but surely, learning the ways of the world and deserves so much more love than everyone in the world, combined, could give. I don't see your flaws or mistakes, because I firmly believe that flaws and mistakes all come together in time to make each of us a better person. I just know that I'm not the only one who sees you that way. I'm not discounting or denying your feelings; we've all felt judged, and I have no doubt that you have been looked down on by people because of who you are, simply because we all have at various points and that's the way the world spins
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There's something I don't understand here. You're talking about planning, and that your one college (Trinity Lutheran, right? I think that's what it's called. The one in Canada?) was where you felt you belonged and God wanted you to be. So what changed? What made you decide not to go to college? If you really believe that's what's right for you, I'll support your decision - but not if you're making that choice so you can work day and night so you can afford to have your own apartment and wear Abercrombie clothes. If you're making a plan that's going to benefit your future, you have me behind you 100%. Are you going to be a writer? A business manager? A pastor? A youth leader? What are your plans? And have you really thought through what you need to do before you can get to that point
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yea so i tried to reply and my LJ said my journal was in "read only mode" and wouldnt post it... so i'll try now. HOPEFULLY it goes through this time.
i have to make it brief though because im just stepping out the door- my mom adn i are going to Whidbey island for some bonding time.
ssoooo what am i thinking of doing next year???
First off, college is still in my mind. im undecided on what to do. at some point i will go to college. just in question whether it will be this coming year or not...
I've felt this need to serve for a while. This summer I will be working at that camp again. But as for the fall... I really want to work in a Battered Women's Shelter and share my faith and experiences with the women there. I know this is where i want to go with life, i just thought it would be after college. however for some reason i'm getting the feeling its supposed to be now. :)
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First, it seems that you spend a lot of time being upset about people judging you. Not everyone does, you know - take me for example - I don't know that you'll believe me, but I can only hope that you will - when I look at you, I see an utterly beautiful girl who is slowly, but surely, learning the ways of the world and deserves so much more love than everyone in the world, combined, could give. I don't see your flaws or mistakes, because I firmly believe that flaws and mistakes all come together in time to make each of us a better person. I just know that I'm not the only one who sees you that way. I'm not discounting or denying your feelings; we've all felt judged, and I have no doubt that you have been looked down on by people because of who you are, simply because we all have at various points and that's the way the world spins ( ... )
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My plans for the future are posted in my reply to Kristinia (i'll just keep it in one place so i dont have to talk aboutit twice). ;)
hahahahahhahahaa you made me laugh. that night at the hotel was hilariuos.... oh man..... how old was that boy again????
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i have to make it brief though because im just stepping out the door- my mom adn i are going to Whidbey island for some bonding time.
ssoooo what am i thinking of doing next year???
First off, college is still in my mind. im undecided on what to do. at some point i will go to college. just in question whether it will be this coming year or not...
I've felt this need to serve for a while. This summer I will be working at that camp again. But as for the fall... I really want to work in a Battered Women's Shelter and share my faith and experiences with the women there. I know this is where i want to go with life, i just thought it would be after college. however for some reason i'm getting the feeling its supposed to be now. :)
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