some random thoughts about the phase i'm in.

[greeneyedbaby16]

i've changed a lot recently, and i dont know what to make of it. half the time i dont even know who i am anymore. i feel like i'm a different person. and i justify it because i know i'm going to jesus camp in a month and i know i'll be good then. i feel like i can do whatever i want now because i wont do anything bad later.... yea. thats a pretty

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[silentimplosion]

well i don't really know what to tell you... you know how i feel about the tanning business... i could tell last time i saw you that you had been going more frequently. you didn't look like the erica i remembered.

i think this whole business with the arykah and the bleaching and the tanning and the being-incredibly-thin is wearing on you, hon. you need to shed it all and figure out somehow who you actually ARE. hopefully the "jesus camp" experience will help you with that. but the erica i remember from last august wouldn't have referred to it in that detached sort of way, so i'm wondering if maybe you've prepared some kind of a mental block to having an experience as powerful as the one you did before.

call me if you want to talk. i'm honestly getting more worried about you every day. i'd write more but i'm out of time on the computer - talk to you later. remember that i love you!

- kristina

Hey hon...

[crystalineskier]

It's Jon again, just checking up on everything going on in some perople's lives

Re: Hey hon...

[silentimplosion]

Wow Jon I hope you don't take this as horribly as it looks to me but I had no idea that you were so sweet... =) Seriously. I mean, I don't subscribe to all the "horny bastard" crap because I know that's not you at all, but I guess I've never seen the more serious side of you except when it comes out in your music.

With that said, I completely agree and can relate to each of your points. Erica, listen to him, he knows what he's talking about...