i think i have learned alot this summer, primarily that i can't stand change unless i can control it. the first thing was that a shift in relationships took place. i found that someone wanted to be more than just a friend, even though i was still comfortable with the friendship as it was. but the benefits of our new, um playtimes, were fun untill ( Read more... )

how come i miss him so much? how does he have such control over my emotions? how does he always know what im thinking? how does he alwawys know exactly what to say to make me giggle or feel better? How does he warm me up just by kissing me? will everything be the same when he comes back? Fuck it

today was really boring. they all seem to flow together and all i ever want to do i go outside and run through poppy fields like in the wizard of oz. accept for instead of accidentally getting high off the opium, the scarecrow, tin man, lion, and i would sit down in the middle of the meadow of poppies and have a joint.