Comments | greenidentity: Never is a promise

greenidentity

Never is a promise

Apr 22, 2009 15:32

I forgot how hard and terrible break ups are.

Why, as humans, is our emotional memory so flawed.

Comments 5

greenidentity April 23 2009, 01:03:06 UTC

Thank you. I just feel like maybe I made a mistake. I am so tired of always shooting myself in the foot.

greenidentity April 23 2009, 01:48:54 UTC

I don't want to get married to anyone. It wasn't about him. I don't see marriage as necessary in my life. But yes, he is more traditional in that way. We had a lot of differences. But we loved each other deeply. I haven't loved anyone as much as I love him. Ever. I never meant to "reject" him. I guess I thought I was doing us both a favor. But I lost the only man who will love me like that as a result. And it sucks and now I get to lie in this fucking bed I made.

greenidentity April 23 2009, 03:01:56 UTC

You are speaking with logic. It's just confusing - the emotion and the logic here are very far apart. Sometimes, I wish he would have punched me or something.

thewisetrees April 23 2009, 09:09:35 UTC

I can relate to how you feel about this. I might not understand the depth of how loved you felt by him, but I do relate to the sense of loss, fueled by your doubt about the decision ( ... )

greenidentity April 23 2009, 14:47:31 UTC

Oh don't apologize. You make a ton of sense. Here's how I am feeling today though ( ... )