Update. Again.

[greenislove]

I'm not speaking to my brother. I don't know if he knows that I'm not speaking to him, but I don't care.

I need to back up. There is too much going on.

Comments

[sietske]

That... Wow. Complicated. And hurtful. And draining.

I've got nothing but questions I'm sure you're going over and over already (and are none of my business anyway) and *hugs*

Oh and also, *virtually boxes your brother's ears while yelling "mind your own flippin' soul, yeah?"*

[greenislove]

Yeah....

[p00tigger]

*hug*

[greenislove]

Thanks *sniffles*

[katharhino]

I'm sure from your brother's perspective it's painful that your beliefs have changed so much, and probably he thinks it's his duty to point that out. But dude, when is rudeness ever a good way to make someone change her mind? So difficult. I am so sorry you went through that, and didn't even get closure or any kind of an apology or anything.

And really sorry about your mom's health issues. That sounds quite serious.

[greenislove]

Yeah, I understand an initial sadness and confusion, because I used to believe that way too. I get it. My parents sat me down about a year ago and we had a similar conversation ("We didn't see this coming, what's going on?" that type of thing). It was much more respectful, it did not devolve into shouting, and my parents and Sean left with a clearer understanding of each other

[greenislove]

Thanks. I can use hugs. :)

[shemmelle]

Hugs to you!

I hope your mother is feeling better soon, and more hugs to you because dealing with that is stressful.

Also probably a good idea to limit your time with your brother when you can and I'm sorry that he cannot be more accepting and supportive. (Or at least realise he "tried" and now it's on you and Sean)

Also I know how painful it is to see the contrast in treatment so another lot of hugs. I sadly have no solutions.

Although I will say is there no way you could go to Hamilton? It sounds like it is something that would be good for you and might give you something positive to look forward to? But not obviously if it puts you in a very stressful financial situation etc.

[greenislove]

Our idea is to put the tickets on Stubhub for a certain price and see if we get any bites. If they don't sell within a certain period, we'll take them down and still go ourselves, but if not, we can certainly use the money. It's hard to hang on to tickets that you paid less than $200 for, but are now going for upwards of $1,500. Especially when you're trying to save for a wedding.

Although lately I'm leaning more towards the original courthouse-dinner idea.

[shemmelle]

On the other hand you got the tickets at a great price and unless you have already seen it, why not treat yourself and Sean? Is it something both of you will enjoy? Will it create some great memories for you. A pre wedding trip etc?

Especially if you are not sure about the type of wedding you want. If you want the a dinner and the courthouse then you should do that. You can still wear a nice dress and have your mother there (when she feels better)

But if you feel you won't have any regrets having the money over the experience then sell those suckers

[greenislove]

Yes to all of that. But it is in New York, which means planning a whole trip, which is another level of stress. Of course we'd love to see it, but then add on to that the fact that most of the original cast is leaving before September, and they're already putting together a national tour, AND there are talks of a DVD/PBS production being made of the whole show, and it does lessen the incentive to go. It would still be a wonderful experience if we did, but the urgency isn't there.

As far as the wedding goes, I really just need to pick a place to have it. Once I know where it's going to be, the rest of the planning will be easier.