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[greenseafaery]

I have a friend who is thinking about going for, I think it is her second, masters degree. Im happy for her. I just feel like such a dumbass because I barely made my BA. I just wasnt smart enough for college. I hate myself. Im fat, ugly, and have accomplished shit in and with my life. Someone should just kill me and stop me from wasting space.

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[wolfeecho]

I almost failed out of collage myself. Continued for the sake of my parents. Had no idea what I wanted to do or be when I grew up.....

I don't know what it is like to be at a job for more than 4 years, or to live in one place for my entire life.....I have learned over the years that when I start comparing myself to others I feel extremely unsettled. My life is my own and I cannot ever compare my life, my history to someone elses.

I know that is hard to hear, so please try to not/stop comparing your life to others...there is a lot about your life that others wish to have....

[greenseafaery]

Sounds like me. I dont think I have held a job for longer than 2 years. I would have loved to keep managing projects for Ancestry but my boss had f*ed up so bad they decided to outsource. I was told if they had know how great I was the outsourcing would have never happened. I moved tons when I was a kid. I still want to move every 3-4 years.
I need to sit down and write my novel. People who I have let read it seem to like it. I came across a weird article about possible Egyptian artifacts in the Grand Canyon which has influenced the direction my story is going to take so if I can just make myself write (I have no self-discipline) I think I could maybe one day have a sucessful book.
Meanwhile I feel like a loser because I am not what I want to be, whatever that is.