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I feel like its so pathetic to miss someone who's so far away, and someone who hasn't been a part of my life in such a long time yet manages to come back into it as if it was nothing. Tonight made me realize how I much I miss him :(
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It's 5:00 in the morning, and I can't find a way to get to sleep, even though I've already taken my sleeping pills. Unfortunately the outter zone and moesha aren't doing it for me. Today was such a difficult day for me. and it seems as though the days have been getting harder and harder and i find myself getting more and more frustrated. With this ( Read more... ) -
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Sometimes I feel as though I let other people's lives take precedent over mine. I don't like. No matter what I try to do, there's no stopping it. I feel myself slipping into an oblivion falling faster and further into an empty fucked up mess. Pretty impressive use of consonance, eh? I know I'm not super aggressive, and clearly that's why I've ( Read more... ) -
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Well, I'm just on my way to bed, and so if this message is unclear its because I'm drowsy from the medication, but whatever. It's like put me in that mood where I'd love to do a shot of vodka... hmmm... but i wont. ANYWAY 18 days til my birthday -- two weeks, and its just like, woah. I can't believe it. Even though today happened to be a hell of a ( Read more... ) -
welcome to oblivion
I can't believe its been so long since I last wrote an entry. I don't know but time surely flies by ( Read more... ) -
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So, I've spoken to a few people about the things that have been on my mind, mainly housing. I feel like I'm lost and confused on the whole situation, to be quite honest. The possibility of living with Vanessa has come up, but I don't know if I really want to live with her. First off, even though we spoke about it yesterday, and about how great it ( Read more... ) -
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So, a few days ago I did the little thing called 25 major/minor things... which was kind of nothing in particular, to be quite honest, but it was something I just to just describe yourself in, well, 25 ways. I had been having a pretty awful day, so I guess it was wednesday, because wednesday was a pretty horrible fucking day, but anyway, after ( Read more... ) -
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I have two new years resolutions...wonder if i'll be able to keep either of them. -
New Years Eve can k i s s my ass
I've been sitting here really upset for the past two hours or so, and I figured the only way to really get this shit off of my chest was to write about it- I don't know what kind of help that will do because I've talked it out and that didn't seem to really work well, so, essentially what I'm really doing is wasting my time, but whatever I guess.. ( Read more... ) -
the holidays... suck
I'm not gonna lie, the holidays suck. Why would I lie? It's been proven. It's the hard honest truth. I'm sure there have been studies done, that the holidays are the worst time of year. I absolutely hate it. I detest it. I hate how couples are so cutesy, holding hands, and happy together, it makes me sick. I'm jealous, oh so jealous.