So last year I lost a packet of seed I really wanted to plant. It was a problem.

This year I'm cataloguing all my seeds in a spreadsheet-- not carrying them over from previous years when I bought them but doing a full inventory. Then I'm putting them in a cabinet. They don't go in the cabinet until they're catalogued. Theoretically they don't come ( Read more... )

It's been hovering at freezing for a couple days now. These warming periods aren't unusual here, I have one just a little warmer recorded in 2019 for instance. This one, though, isn't really dipping above freezing nor below. It's hovering.

The snow gives up dense white fog. Meanwhile the top layer of snow softens, it's juicy when stepped upon but ( Read more... )

I've been showing up for myself emotionally for a long time; we've had that advice to have self-compassion, to be kind to ourselves, and that is a significant part of my practice. I'm good at it. I've kept this journal for over twenty years; this journal is a significant way I show up for myself.

Lately though, I'm learning to show up for myself in ( Read more... )

Today was warm enough to get the snowblower working. One of the issues was that its oil was only good down to -20C, so when I tried to start it at -30C it was basically sludge. There was also a lack of fuel stabilizer and old oil, but I had to run it for a bit to get the oil to pick up all the little metal bits since I hadn't changed the-- well, ( Read more... )

My body is my link to the present.

My mind is the link to the future.

The land links the two.

Let's return to my body for awhile.

I've been eating fairly well lately. It's often so hard for me to eat; the fact that I need to, or that I like something, or especially that I've put love and anticipation into something, trips my PDA. I also have tended to ( Read more... )

Still -30C out. This weather is just not breaking, it's going on and on and on. I'm still bucketing water from the house for the animals because the outside tap is extra not working. Apparently you can get aneurysms in your fingers from bucketing too much, so I'm being careful to wear gloves etc. So far everyone seems ok: one piglet with a bit of ( Read more... )

For some reason folks don't seem to associate planting trees with land tenure. Have some sense, folks: if you want to be buried with a tree growing on you, want ten trees to be planted for every sweatshirt you buy, want your government to plant trees to stop global warming, those trees must all be planted on land that is then dedicated to them for ( Read more... )

This was given me this morning:

When the time comes
to love yourself well
it may take you
a good solid year
to stop crying
about all you have
to let go.

Andrea Gibson

It's time to make this a little more formal.

All my life I've wanted someone to see me, to not necessarily walk beside me every step but to know my story. That's where I kept my eyes when everyone got married, maybe had kids, got divorced, did careers. There's no one left in my life who's been there from the start and will be there until the end ( Read more... )

This was an excellent holiday. It had the things I love over the holidays: cooking, passive entertainment, a slower pace, special foods, family, pretty lights, regrouping for the future, some time outside. Someone even sent me a secret surprise gift (!) though that shook me a little. I took over a whole week off, and I managed that feeling of being ( Read more... )