i hope no one who goes to school ever finds this journal. i had a dream that took place in the villa mariea, which is a house in finland by the finnish architect alvar aalto. the outside is a collage of materials, and the inside breaths. it's a quiet pink there are no angles or structure inside, just unfeigned comfort. we are dancing very much ( Read more... )

i want to write something about the road, nevada painted on fire, the badlands waiting to be softened under a second sea, and how we fit together like a harbor, how we took it in ( Read more... )

my tongue is so out of shape

i'm just a regular old person working in a regular old sandwich shop.

the last issue of the student newspaper is a giant crossword puzzle. i've been working on it all week long, but it seemed a lot more exciting when i still had homework to do. homework is finished, but i don't feel a release. i'm starting to worry that i will never capture it, that stress and responsibility have turned up the volume for good. in ( Read more... )

when i'm trying to describe something about myself i feel as if language is a tiny spoon and i'm trying to capture a lake. they try and make it easier for you. i filled out three forms in the waiting room at health services, the kind of forms that have little boxes next to diseases that you check off, spaces for you to list medications, they ask ( Read more... )

1. I finished Camera Lucida today while waiting for my mom to get back from her walk. I never minded reading short ruminations on art or photography, or the philosophies of these things. I feel that it helps me to define my tastes in a more articulate manner. I was supposed to take notes in the margins of the book. It seems that teachers always ( Read more... )

the process grinds in my head. coffee has become complicated, movies have become simple. people always say, oh that character is great, he's exactly like all these people i know, you know, there's always THAT guy, who does this, or is like this, and this movie has wrapped all the THAT guys into one guy and isn't that great? i don't know because ( Read more... )

advil: 50 ibuprofen caplets, 200 mg ( Read more... )

Blue as Fake ( Read more... )