i forgot i had a livejournal. and how often i updated it.  i seem to have forgotten a lot of who i was.
im sorry to myself for forgetting that.  i want to go back because this isnt who i am.
i forgot how open i used to be about anything and especially on this. wow.  i think im gonna start using it again. 

and i hope, and wish, and pray
maybe one day.... but im probably just getting my hopes up
to have them fall hard to the ground
like i should expect
but ill do it anyway

"And I'm as good as dead"

if i get drunk well, i'll pass out
on the floor now baby
you won't bother me no more
if you're drinkin' well, you know
that you're my friend and i say
i think i'll have myself a beer.

Thats it.  Thirty-five days until I ship out to Reception Battalion at Fort Benning, GA.  Six days later I ship out to Sand Hill, FT Benning, GA and spend what is going to be the most grueling, motivating, awesome, intense, hard, painfull, worthy experience of my life to date.  Two days later I ship out to Ft Sam Houston, TX.  I'll be living in ( Read more... )

Ok, so it seems im a bit shorter than i thought - im 5'11" which sucks because my weight req is now 191 MAX which means i gotta be under that at all times....fuck...30 lbs to lose that sucks ( Read more... )

Army Strong.
hmmm.
it has a completely different meaning when you that is your goal.
ive lost some weight...im the smallest ive been since EMU.  212lbs.  the military req. is 206 for me but my goal is 180-190.  We shall see.

ok i took the advice of a very wise person and researched all the branches...and so far the ARMY is looking to be my place due to career placements.

ok so that was a complete fucking rip off of a scam ( Read more... )

so big decision in my life right now.  ive made up my mind but of course im going back and forth because i always do that.  lack of confidence...sucks lol.
im meeting with a director from MIFilmProductions today to do camera for a movie.  get to use a www.supervideo.com/CanonXMsv2a.jpg (canon GL2).
im going back to filming bands, and promotions.  ( Read more... )

She likes to shake her ass she grinds it to the beat
She likes to pull my hair when I make her grind her teeth

i cannot describe how amazing rock n roll is making me feel right now.
and not just like punk or ska but  honest to god heavy guitars and loud drums crank the bass and sing about sex and drugs in the 80s rock n roll.
and theory of a deadman ( Read more... )