mostly just feel like crying today.

i think i'm finally ready to leave this earth soon.

i still dream of you.
you were with me last night, actually.
and then i awoke in a blanket of snow.
cold and needing you more than ever,
no matter how many lifetimes ago.

The flood of words shall begin once I have them. They are moving, though.

i am filled with so much regret.

'something i can never have'

and all the stones i've thrown.
they come back twice as strong.

The size of our fight, it's just a dream.
We've crushed everything I can see, in this morning selfishly.
How we've failed and I feel like I do.

you can have it all;
my empire of dirt.
i will let you down;
i will make you hurt.

i've lost my way so many times that i don't know which way home even is now.

mistakes and unsatisfaction. it doesn't really matter anymore.
endure this for yourself. endure this two stay afloat.
it's always darkest before the dawn.