don't call me.
my phones gone.
don't try to make plans with me.
i'm grounded for the rest of summer.
and the weekend after school starts.
[since that time last year,i got in the accident.]

my heart hurts.

so do my eyes.

end of passion play, crumbling away.
i'm your source of self-destruction.
veins that pump with fear, sucking darkest clear,
leading on your deaths construction.
taste me you will see,
more is all you need.
you're dedicated to,
how i'm killing you.

i'm sick.
and tired.
very sick and tired.
i want things to go my way for once ( Read more... )

history was made in my room yesterday.
pleased.

there is a million ideas running through my head.
making me feel extremely overwhelmed.
like when mea and i drive down dale mabry in traffic.
a kind of paralyzing feeling.
LAME.

mea's hair looks good.
[duh.]

i am infatuated.
but i know it's a mistake.
help?

FUCK.

i'll miss you backpack.
and everything you contain.

[edit 7-21-05]
yesterday was one of the most odd days i've ever had.
[/edit]

Post five things you enjoy, even when no one around you wants to go out and play. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level? Post it in your journal, and then tag 5 friends and ask them to post theirs.

1.jamming out in my room
2.smoking pot
3.milo
4.figuring out what color i'll dye my hair next
5.my pillow ( Read more... )

who read the 6th harry potter book in about a day?
oh yeah.
me.
hahaha.
it was by far the best one yet ( Read more... )

so our adventure was not successful ( Read more... )

where is maleah?
sunday,she will be found.
and that is pleasing.

grace moved up in the world this afternoon.
she left the pitcher.
and went to the bucket.
i think she will be much happier in her new living arrangements.
WANTED:a ball of sunshine that will shine forever ( Read more... )

close your eyes and see,
when there ain't no light,
all you'll ever be,
come and save the night,
cause i don't leave,
when the morning comes it doesn't seem to say an awful lot to me.

i am pretty much pleased with everything ( Read more... )

last entry = CRAP ( Read more... )