I've always been a forgiving person...

[groovenaut]

But I'm so tired of being the girl everyone feels like it's okay to forget and/or push to the side. Sure, that's fine. Cancel on me. Forget to show up. Lie to me. Tell me you "have feelings for me" then change your mind a day later. It's all okay because you know that I can "handle" it as well as I handle everything else. It's okay because you know

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[allmypulp]

You know men... we're assholes, and morons. We don't know how to handle our emotions, or our desire for sex. Or how to accurately express either. We are shallow murky waters. Not that deep, but deceptive.

[groovenaut]

I step up to the plate for my friends and loved ones day after day. I may not be hitting homeruns, but at least I try. I put out some effort. I don't think it's okay to sit by idly and think "She won't mind if I don't show up tonight because she's so forgiving."

It's all bullshit. And I'd love to lump it all onto the shoulders of the men in my life, but the truth is that it all spans both sexes.

And the only common denominator is me. So apparently, I'm the one who has to make the changes. Not anyone else.

[allmypulp]

I suppose so, maybe you should call them out, and not be polite about it. But if you are the victim don't blame yourself too much.

[groovenaut]

True...but first I need to figure out if I'm really just feeling over-sensitive as a result of recent occurences, or if I really have reason to feel the way I do.

On an almost completely unrelated note, I'd love to chat with you sometime. The more we swap notes, the more I think I'd enjoy conversation. What do you say?

[spikeyhairboy]

Awwwww. I totally used to be the doormat in my group of friends too. Things will get better though, I promise!

[coolbluereason]

i skipped over this entry along time ago on accident and i want you to know that a lot of the time i feel the same way. i can imagine that you probablythink i'm full of shit, but i've definitely felt somewhere along these lines.