i hate being sick. i have a cold, and im trying to be in denial about it. i got up and went out for a couple of hours today. im already way behind on my reading so i worked on that for a while. but i just got too tired and didn't want to deal with the rain so i just came home. i took a nap and had some tea, but i just feel yucky. i want to be ( Read more... )

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he's out of town hopefully for good. i wouldn't mind if i never saw his face again. im going to be pissed if she starts calling and hanging out all the time now ( Read more... )

i get so angry when i get that first twinge of an anxiety attack. i try everything i can think of to stave it off. everytime i feel like i will figure out some new way to trick my mind into calming down. but inevitably i wake up the next morning on the verge of tears and vomit. that is where i am this morning. i was able to eat a banana and ( Read more... )

will someone who knows about computers please come over and make my internet work. idon't know how to use a router

girls really do suck so much. i am ashamed to have known any of them. im waiting for the day when i can just relax in actual trust. when i can find a girl who will love all of me and not just the pretty parts. all of the dark and ugly and god forbid scary parts. those are the most important parts of who i am and no one has the right to make me ( Read more... )

sometimes i really just want to go home. intensity happened, and now there is nothing. when will any of it make any sense?

Whatever, i must now go write on Hobbes and Aristotle.

things are going pretty well i suppose. i've been super busy since school started. wednesday is my last day at target for a while. technically im only going on a leave of absence. i will decide if im going to return after the holidays. i decided to take the leave because i forgot about there stupid no time off during the holidays rule, and I ( Read more... )

i don't want a soulmate anymore. her absense hurts and i hate it. gone are the days of carefree living. both my parents now have photo phones. they are funny. and T bought a scion. movin on up.

whattup kids. i haven't died, i've just been hella busy. school is going well. im really enjoying latin. thats all the time i have.