Mini the mini-pin has passed away..

Due to the storms sunday night / monday morning a fence keeping three big dogs in was knocked down. They were roaming the neighborhood and they got in a fight with Mini.

Mini died today from the wounds.

Me sad :(

Some people smoke, or chew their nails, or shake their leg..

Well I shake my leg.. but I also scratch at myself, picking and picking until I pay attention and i see blood all over my hand..

Gah.. its crazy.. and hurts.. owie..

Feels need, of feelings indeed
Push out, struggle to breathe
Crush all, things of such evil
Spread out, destroy that need!

Fingers end in the cure,
Nails tear, rip and be sure
Splay out, ribbons and be rid
Of evil inside, of things,
of life, of dreams...

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I can't do it. Fuck! I can't do anything. I'm too afraid to enjoy life, I'm too afraid to even leave my room.

Just sit in here and wait to die. Sit in here and want to die.
I'm afraid.

There is a nice warm place waiting for me down in hell, I just know it.

I have spent my night playing with a power tool and a hacksaw...

And I still have all my fingers!

But, do ears grow back?

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You still make me melt.

Sleeping has been shitty as of late. Dreams of family, dreams of school, dreams of things I don't want to deal with when i'm awake.

Blah! I don't want to wake up and be forced to think about the implications of the things i've just dreamt of. I don't want to wake up and feel like shit, and have twitches.
This calls for self-medication.

i'm tired.

don't want to go here, don't want to go there.can't go either direction.

bah!