i'm really worried about maria i mean i'm depressed and i used to understand her but shes just breaking down..and i'm here for her but she wont let me take her in...if you understand. marias just complicated. anyways today was alright....but like mrs williams was all asking me why i've been so sad lately and why i dont perticipate and the only ( Read more... )

ugh my dad said he was this close *does small finger thing* to taking me out of school to go and see a physicaitrist but whatever....so umm i dont know what to say i just havent updated in awhile. so yeah. alright i need to know what to get matt for his birthday (may 29) I NEED IDEAS PEOPLE! alrighty post a comment with GOOD ideas. thnx later ( Read more... )

i bought two skirts today. with my sister and shelbi. my mom said i had to. ughhh. she says all my clothes are too 'punkish' NO THEY ARENT theyre just...not PREPPISH. ugh. gayness. haha janine good ol' times. but uhh my sister bought a fire man hat at the dollar tree and i get to wear it for teen living since you need a hat. so its gunna be rad. ( Read more... )

yeah i just got back from ailey buckleys house and it was a grand time. ok this was how my weekends been so far ( Read more... )

why does it have to be me. i dont get it. out of the zillions of people walking this earth. it has to be me. i mean i know i have friends that are there for me...but they arent next to me every second of my day and night. and when theyre gone i need them most. well i dont know whats going on with matt he says he didnt cheat on me and that he doesnt ( Read more... )

ahh man my life is so messed up i cant control it. i find something i like and i always ends up just like...dying. i really wanna start cutting again but i know i cant i havent done it in almost a week now and i promise myself i wouldnt take the razor to my wrist. ah man i need help...i've been really trying to reach out lately but nothings working ( Read more... )

just got back from school. today was good. since alex wasnt here i didnt have to worry about seeing him and getting all sad and junk.. but uh i went to my orthodontist oppiontment at 8:45 got LIGHT BLUE its purdy. i was sick of red...anyhoo then i went to mcdonalds and then went home changed my shirt and then went to school around 9:50ish and then ( Read more... )

today was so so i was all depressed.......again...and then i talked to matt and felt a bit better. but yeah. but today mr crichton was being a dick in pe ugh i hate him he was like tiffany why didnt you dress out and she was like because and he was all threating her to send to the office because all this crap and it was gay and then like he said ( Read more... )

woo today i was happy...well untill english but whatever. TOMMY FRANKENBURGER FROM ELEMENTARY SCHOOL IS MOVING INTO CHRISTOPHER FARMS IN AUGUST!!!! woo i am SO excited i didnt know he was moving back from california so soon. i'm so excited though. woo. i can not wait. anyhoo i'm going out with matt now...so its all good. donnie and andy hate me ( Read more... )

well me and ashlee got into a spat...like usual. umm shes been really mean to me lately so i just decided to show her what it feels like. by being mean back. she called me a slut. and i dont care. but whatever she has a 'xanga' now and its retarded because she has the SAME EXACT layout as janine did. its so gay. hmm well yeah. i'm gunna start ( Read more... )