It feels like someone is slowly depriving me of oxygen.
And on August 30th it'll be completely gone.

I hate this.

It is so absolutely painful.

Yesterday was the most amazing day. I don't know how to explain it. We didn't do anything especially spectacular, but it just was such a nice day ( Read more... )

I would just like to apologize to those who mean the most to me for my behavior lately. I have been so emotional lately. Things aren't sitting well inside of me, and as you probably know I have a horrible way of dealing with that. I'm trying so hard to change- not to have these mood swings, not to lash out at the few people who I truly care ( Read more... )

yesterday I spent the day with the worst head pain (i had a fever) and very bad stomach ache that caused me to throw up on more than on occaision.

today I am physically better, but things are just getting worse.

I feel like I'm watching life from the outside... everything's going on inside but i'm not included ( Read more... )

I think I'm having some sort of mental breakdown... I can't figure out why though. I have no valid reason whatsoever. I don't get it. I don't get me. I am having mood swings like crazy. grrrrrrr.

Also, I'm having Harry Potter withdrawls.
I guess in a way I feel like Harry right now.
<3 Harry Potter <3 ( Read more... )

Positively: At least Harry Potter, his crew, and I have bonded... damn... I really wish they were real right about now. I know I'm retarded, but at least then I wouldn't be so lonely. right?

I'm eating a muffin... from a batch of muffins that I just made. Yes thats right I cooked something... thats how bored I was ( Read more... )

...but then again, this depression thing is kicking my ass.

this is not me... this is the old me. This is how I used to be, and I hate it.

I think it's the BOREDOM. It's gotten to me. I sit and do absolutely, positively NOTHING all day. I can't stand it. What a waste of life.
"but at least for those 3 hours a day you can be with tyler....the one person you feel the most comfortable with in the world ( Read more... )

I hate college already.

I feel like everything that I like about my life is going to end on September 3rd.

I think I am having a huge anxiety attack.