Update on the housing sitch, looking for a new job etc.
I think I'm just going to stay put where I am.
Looking back, I'm actually surprised at how aggressively I reacted to all that. Like, take for example the phone call back from my landlord after I left a message explaining why I wouldn't be able to pay rent on time. He basically wasn't buying my story (but didn't ever explicitly say that, instead saying something along the lines of "there are lots of stories out there which I'm sure are all true yadda yadda but we can't take your payment late") and saying he would go straight along with the eviction process, and then I yelled into the receiver "EXCUSE ME SIR BUT I HAVE TENANT'S RIGHTS!" and amazingly, you know what he said? He said "NO YOU DON'T!" I almost laughed but I was so furious at how this guy was being so difficult about my situation with my paychecks. I didn't listen much to him after that. Any business has the option of receiving payments late. It sucks, but DAMN that's what happens with people. It wasn't even the fact of him "threatening" me with eviction, just his tone of voice and the way he was addressing me. I wouldn't have been able to pay witing the three day eviction notice period. I let him know my rent was going to be late, and why, and... ugh, it just made me disgusted with him, that he just didn't give a fuck. And that's why I started looking for another place to live right away because I couldn't imagine myself being happy paying this guy my rent.
But whatever. I mean, I'm glad I made myself look at other options and think about all the pros and cons. Because it's really a bitch trying to find a place that meets your needs in LA. And I really like where I am for now. If you're wondering, no, I won't be going to eviction court this week because one of my roommates came up with my part of the rent *feels like crap for that*. Basically if one person can't come up with the rent, everyone gets evicted, so yeah. UGH!! Stupid late paychecks!! Now I have a bad history with my landlord!! He totally hates me now.
But anyways, besides the bitchy suckiness of looking for a new place, there's also the dickish crappiness of MOVING and all expenses associated, and let's not get into breaking the contract with above stated Maria-hating landlord. And then getting acquainted all over again with new neighbors and roommates. And then building a whole new routine from scratch with the morning commute, etc... it just sucks.
But the fact that I totally would have dealt with that to make my current landlord a fleeting thought in my mind just shows you how pissed off I was.
I hadn't gotten that riled up about anything for a LONG time. It surprised me a few days later (last night actually) when I thought about it.
I've got my fighting spirit back. I've got my drive back. Basically, I'm out of my depression. That phone conversation makes it official. Me actually sending out resumes and cover letters instead of just "intending" to do it makes it official.
I've been off of Lexapro since July. I think I was only on it for 12 weeks.. I'll have to look back to make sure.. I only saw my therapist 6 or 7 times I think.. definitely under 10. What'd I get out of it? Well, that I definitely needed the Lexapro at the time, but the therapist was a waste of money. There's more to my depression, which I'll talk about in a later entry, but I hit rock bottom because of my Grandfather's death happening after I lost my scholarship and got academically disqualified out of school. I was reeling, just trying to find something to hold onto after I'd lost so much of what defined who I was. So yeah. I definitely needed the meds to keep me going after that. But the therapy just didn't work. And obviously I've made it through this far without both. But again, I'll talk about it later.
So job-wise, I'm currently working through a temp staffing service (Randstad) who gave me my first assignment as an executive assistant (read: high-end secretary) at Pricewaterhouse Coopers LLP which ends today. It was for two weeks and $17/hour for 40 hours each week. Pretty sweet for just writing people's letters, making powerpoint presentations, and a lot of copies. *thumbs up* I'll finally be able to save up money for that safety net I've been dying to have, and to just start saving for retirement and fun things. Thing is, I'm not sure how much I can depend on getting these temp jobs often enough to support me, so that's why I'm sending out resumes to similar part-time admin. assistant jobs, so that I'll always have a dependable source of income but still have time to take on the temp jobs for extra cash. I'll be sending an e-mail to my temp agent to ask just how often I can expect to be offered temp assignments.. But I still want an actual dependable part-time job.
The great thing is that I feel so confident in getting one... All I'm thinking right now is, "Yes, I'm going to get that job, and they're idiots if they don't hire the Mercedes-Benz of Secretaries for their office!"
The one I really want right now is for a part-time legal assistant at a small firm in downtown that specializes in small business litigation. I sent such a great cover letter with my resume!! AUUGH I can't wait for a reply I want to hear back from them TODAY!!!
If for some reason I don't land that, there's also a part-time legal assistant position at Aames financial in the exact same building that I'm doing my PricewaterhouseCoopers job, just three floors below me. I'm working on the cover letter for that as I type this entry. I originally thought that I should work both this and the smaller firm, but realized it would be smarter to do just one and have the temporary jobs available to me because if I did both I'd have to quit one when I started school again next spring.
I'm really hoping I get the small law firm job though. I like that environment and I feel my bosses would be more supportive and understanding of me there once I do start school.
So, cross your fingers everyone, and send telepathic signals to the Law Offices of SALERNO & DASSOFF to hire me! And if that somehow insanely doesn't work, do the same for Aames!
MUA HA HA HA HA.
Ha ha.
Ha! :-)
Once I get a more stable job, I'll feel MUCH more relaxed.... and then I'll finally be able to start focusing again on school.
I can deal with a stupid landlord. I think if I just pay rent early through the rest of my contract I'll never have to really deal with his stupidhead again. Pfsh. Stupidhead.
I had better get my paychecks today. If not, I'm totally kicking someone's ass. Because if I don't get those paystubs then I can't get a loan to payback all my random debts. Blegh. Things had better work out this week!
OH-- guess what? I CAN'T SHOWER AT MY PLACE FOR AT LEAST A WEEK. UUUUGHGGH I already stink!!!!! Apparently our shower is leaking through the ceiling of the unit below us and it's gonna take a week just for our landlord to find a contractor to fix that. So, this might take more than just a week. OMG I'm gonna smell so bad. And AUNT FLO is VISITING!!!! Argh!!
So now I have to shower at friend's places this week: quite possibly meaning it'll either be nice showers at two friend's places or a frat house where I might walk in on a guy wankin' it. :-P Yeesh. I totally hope it's the first two options.
That's all for now... wish me luck, guys! And thanks for the support. It feels really lonely sometimes out here on my own. It's nice to know someone's thinking of me.
edit (4:15am): Sent off the other cover letter/resume to Aames! DAMN I'm badasssssss. I haven't felt this good and confident about myself in so long.. *beams*
Looking back, I'm actually surprised at how aggressively I reacted to all that. Like, take for example the phone call back from my landlord after I left a message explaining why I wouldn't be able to pay rent on time. He basically wasn't buying my story (but didn't ever explicitly say that, instead saying something along the lines of "there are lots of stories out there which I'm sure are all true yadda yadda but we can't take your payment late") and saying he would go straight along with the eviction process, and then I yelled into the receiver "EXCUSE ME SIR BUT I HAVE TENANT'S RIGHTS!" and amazingly, you know what he said? He said "NO YOU DON'T!" I almost laughed but I was so furious at how this guy was being so difficult about my situation with my paychecks. I didn't listen much to him after that. Any business has the option of receiving payments late. It sucks, but DAMN that's what happens with people. It wasn't even the fact of him "threatening" me with eviction, just his tone of voice and the way he was addressing me. I wouldn't have been able to pay witing the three day eviction notice period. I let him know my rent was going to be late, and why, and... ugh, it just made me disgusted with him, that he just didn't give a fuck. And that's why I started looking for another place to live right away because I couldn't imagine myself being happy paying this guy my rent.
But whatever. I mean, I'm glad I made myself look at other options and think about all the pros and cons. Because it's really a bitch trying to find a place that meets your needs in LA. And I really like where I am for now. If you're wondering, no, I won't be going to eviction court this week because one of my roommates came up with my part of the rent *feels like crap for that*. Basically if one person can't come up with the rent, everyone gets evicted, so yeah. UGH!! Stupid late paychecks!! Now I have a bad history with my landlord!! He totally hates me now.
But anyways, besides the bitchy suckiness of looking for a new place, there's also the dickish crappiness of MOVING and all expenses associated, and let's not get into breaking the contract with above stated Maria-hating landlord. And then getting acquainted all over again with new neighbors and roommates. And then building a whole new routine from scratch with the morning commute, etc... it just sucks.
But the fact that I totally would have dealt with that to make my current landlord a fleeting thought in my mind just shows you how pissed off I was.
I hadn't gotten that riled up about anything for a LONG time. It surprised me a few days later (last night actually) when I thought about it.
I've got my fighting spirit back. I've got my drive back. Basically, I'm out of my depression. That phone conversation makes it official. Me actually sending out resumes and cover letters instead of just "intending" to do it makes it official.
I've been off of Lexapro since July. I think I was only on it for 12 weeks.. I'll have to look back to make sure.. I only saw my therapist 6 or 7 times I think.. definitely under 10. What'd I get out of it? Well, that I definitely needed the Lexapro at the time, but the therapist was a waste of money. There's more to my depression, which I'll talk about in a later entry, but I hit rock bottom because of my Grandfather's death happening after I lost my scholarship and got academically disqualified out of school. I was reeling, just trying to find something to hold onto after I'd lost so much of what defined who I was. So yeah. I definitely needed the meds to keep me going after that. But the therapy just didn't work. And obviously I've made it through this far without both. But again, I'll talk about it later.
So job-wise, I'm currently working through a temp staffing service (Randstad) who gave me my first assignment as an executive assistant (read: high-end secretary) at Pricewaterhouse Coopers LLP which ends today. It was for two weeks and $17/hour for 40 hours each week. Pretty sweet for just writing people's letters, making powerpoint presentations, and a lot of copies. *thumbs up* I'll finally be able to save up money for that safety net I've been dying to have, and to just start saving for retirement and fun things. Thing is, I'm not sure how much I can depend on getting these temp jobs often enough to support me, so that's why I'm sending out resumes to similar part-time admin. assistant jobs, so that I'll always have a dependable source of income but still have time to take on the temp jobs for extra cash. I'll be sending an e-mail to my temp agent to ask just how often I can expect to be offered temp assignments.. But I still want an actual dependable part-time job.
The great thing is that I feel so confident in getting one... All I'm thinking right now is, "Yes, I'm going to get that job, and they're idiots if they don't hire the Mercedes-Benz of Secretaries for their office!"
The one I really want right now is for a part-time legal assistant at a small firm in downtown that specializes in small business litigation. I sent such a great cover letter with my resume!! AUUGH I can't wait for a reply I want to hear back from them TODAY!!!
If for some reason I don't land that, there's also a part-time legal assistant position at Aames financial in the exact same building that I'm doing my PricewaterhouseCoopers job, just three floors below me. I'm working on the cover letter for that as I type this entry. I originally thought that I should work both this and the smaller firm, but realized it would be smarter to do just one and have the temporary jobs available to me because if I did both I'd have to quit one when I started school again next spring.
I'm really hoping I get the small law firm job though. I like that environment and I feel my bosses would be more supportive and understanding of me there once I do start school.
So, cross your fingers everyone, and send telepathic signals to the Law Offices of SALERNO & DASSOFF to hire me! And if that somehow insanely doesn't work, do the same for Aames!
MUA HA HA HA HA.
Ha ha.
Ha! :-)
Once I get a more stable job, I'll feel MUCH more relaxed.... and then I'll finally be able to start focusing again on school.
I can deal with a stupid landlord. I think if I just pay rent early through the rest of my contract I'll never have to really deal with his stupidhead again. Pfsh. Stupidhead.
I had better get my paychecks today. If not, I'm totally kicking someone's ass. Because if I don't get those paystubs then I can't get a loan to payback all my random debts. Blegh. Things had better work out this week!
OH-- guess what? I CAN'T SHOWER AT MY PLACE FOR AT LEAST A WEEK. UUUUGHGGH I already stink!!!!! Apparently our shower is leaking through the ceiling of the unit below us and it's gonna take a week just for our landlord to find a contractor to fix that. So, this might take more than just a week. OMG I'm gonna smell so bad. And AUNT FLO is VISITING!!!! Argh!!
So now I have to shower at friend's places this week: quite possibly meaning it'll either be nice showers at two friend's places or a frat house where I might walk in on a guy wankin' it. :-P Yeesh. I totally hope it's the first two options.
That's all for now... wish me luck, guys! And thanks for the support. It feels really lonely sometimes out here on my own. It's nice to know someone's thinking of me.
edit (4:15am): Sent off the other cover letter/resume to Aames! DAMN I'm badasssssss. I haven't felt this good and confident about myself in so long.. *beams*