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"Death is a natural part of life. Mourn them, do not. Miss them, do not. Attachment leads to jealousy. The shadow of greed, that is. Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose"
That is what I have been trying to base my relationships with people on. It spoke to me as I read it and I knew that is exactly what I needed. All of a sudden, however, two people have tried to break that and I want to open up to them...but I don't want to get hurt. I know it sucks because I will never be able to give 200% of myself to the relationship and I know those two people will both end up reading this. That is the chance I'm willing to take though, maybe one of them will give me positive insight, who knows. If you couldn't tell recently, I have made a huge ass of myself to people and alienated a lot of you. That made me truly happy, but giving away my heart or whatever gay metaphor that relates to this situation could never make me truly happy. What a predicament.