l-lol I had that exact problem with Dera's app. It obviously isn't a concern anymore for me given how much attention I give him these days, b-but yeah. >D For the first month or two I was in this constant state of "D: . . . DDDDD:" with him, w-which is why it took me so long to actually intro post!
Sadly I also do not have advice for this except to just. Stick with the character for a little while and force yourself to play him. You apped him because you love him, right? So keep at him, check against people to see how you're doing from time to time. Eventually your confidence with him should go back up, even if it takes a while. T-That's basically all I could do with Dera. ;; So I guess just judge how long to make the effort with him by how badly you were ready to kill someone and sell their firstborn for the chance to play the character and go from there. o/
[nods] Like, it's weird for me because I don't lack confidence in playing him, per se -- I think my voice is good, I've got around 750 comments in a month which is more than fair, I loev his icons despite them being pb, and he's already made relationships I enjoy. It's like... entirely an OOC lack of confidence like playing him is giving me emotional emo flashbacks or something. [covers face]
I'm glad I'm not the only one, though -- I'll see if I can stick with him. On the one hand, I never wanted to kill anyone to get him (just "It would be so fun if!" not "I NEED THIS CHARACTER NOW!" like I had with some like, say, heat XD) but ont he other I don't want to NOT have him. Thank you for the advice.
I've had that feeling! Not necessarily due to a particularly borderline score -- but particularly with Trowa and a few other of mine. It's just the sort of constant paranoia of "asjkhdaka" and sometimes! For no particular reason. I haven't got any better advice than Dera's XD
On the Cat! In that post it says stuff isn't set up yet...? So I thought we were supposed to not comment until later... or... something? :o WHICH IS MY POOR READING COMPREHENSION n-now that I reread it. orz.
Oh, no, it meant just that the box hadn't been put up ICly yet because they were ICly testing the waters, but OOCly I'd love a list of stuff early on. I'll edit, I had no idea it came across that way. XD; Thank you!
This may sound like a little like what Dera said, but yeah. When I first got Jr. I had the same problem at the start. Hell, I still sometimes stress with him and worry about how he's being viewed by anyone who watches him and his threads. Despite that, I still play him all the time and I got over the really awkward stage at the start which lasted a couple of months where I threw him out but at the same time just had this weighing sense of "oh god eyes on me". So yeah, I do know how that feels, and it can get really annoyingly stressful especially since you want to play and have fun and don't want that there hanging over you
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The last thing I mean to do is wank over the voting crit -- sometimes people have very intense crit, sometimes people don't, and that's fine. It was just totally a combination of that and everything else that was going on at the time, srsly.
[hugs] Thank you so much for the advice, I'll totally see what I can do. And it helps knowing I'm not the only one, too. XD
Just backing up what other people are saying here! Also, adding that playing Maladict was really just... somewhat of a chore and occasionally unpleasant for me for a number of months. And in some sort of strange self-reflexive thing, the fact that he was awkward for me to play got associated with him for me, so even when I got comfortable with the character, for a good while, he just was my least favorite because he'd gotten unconsciously labeled as The Difficult One. And the only thing that really cleared that out for me was time -- it wasn't even something that I noticed happening, but... god, it might have been after I'd had him for over half a year, but eventually I just noticed that that strange awkwardness that I'd had with him had disappeared
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Thank you so much for this. It really helps seeing how other people are handling it in measureing its "okayness" for me.
We linked it from CFO when we first got in, but I have to remember that not everyone sees it that often. I should probably make a general mess hall post when we first put it up or something so more people see it! I'm not sure how to do a camp thieves event with thieves who are trying to keep their identities laying low, but there's gotta be some way -- maybe some kind of "thieves day" where all the thieves spontaneously decide to break into the same place at the same time, or organizing a public post where people are willing to try to interfere without godmoding it. (Ie, no "I see you!", but lots of [rounds the corner right then] [O-oh no I have to drop off the balcony and hang there and hope you don't see my fingers!!])
[grins] AWESOME -- see above comment to Maladict, I forget sometimes that things linked in CFO aren't always seen, and I should probably make it more public.
[nods] XD Yeah, taht's my usual way -- I mean, I'm almost always borderline on apps with a few exceptions only, but once they're in I'm just like YOSHAAAAAAA! and-- yeah. XD This is really weird for me. But thank you -- it does make me happy to make you happy!
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Sadly I also do not have advice for this except to just. Stick with the character for a little while and force yourself to play him. You apped him because you love him, right? So keep at him, check against people to see how you're doing from time to time. Eventually your confidence with him should go back up, even if it takes a while. T-That's basically all I could do with Dera. ;; So I guess just judge how long to make the effort with him by how badly you were ready to kill someone and sell their firstborn for the chance to play the character and go from there. o/
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[nods] Like, it's weird for me because I don't lack confidence in playing him, per se -- I think my voice is good, I've got around 750 comments in a month which is more than fair, I loev his icons despite them being pb, and he's already made relationships I enjoy. It's like... entirely an OOC lack of confidence like playing him is giving me emotional emo flashbacks or something. [covers face]
I'm glad I'm not the only one, though -- I'll see if I can stick with him. On the one hand, I never wanted to kill anyone to get him (just "It would be so fun if!" not "I NEED THIS CHARACTER NOW!" like I had with some like, say, heat XD) but ont he other I don't want to NOT have him. Thank you for the advice.
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On the Cat! In that post it says stuff isn't set up yet...? So I thought we were supposed to not comment until later... or... something? :o WHICH IS MY POOR READING COMPREHENSION n-now that I reread it. orz.
F-Faito on!
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Oh, no, it meant just that the box hadn't been put up ICly yet because they were ICly testing the waters, but OOCly I'd love a list of stuff early on. I'll edit, I had no idea it came across that way. XD; Thank you!
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[hugs] Thank you so much for the advice, I'll totally see what I can do. And it helps knowing I'm not the only one, too. XD
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We linked it from CFO when we first got in, but I have to remember that not everyone sees it that often. I should probably make a general mess hall post when we first put it up or something so more people see it! I'm not sure how to do a camp thieves event with thieves who are trying to keep their identities laying low, but there's gotta be some way -- maybe some kind of "thieves day" where all the thieves spontaneously decide to break into the same place at the same time, or organizing a public post where people are willing to try to interfere without godmoding it. (Ie, no "I see you!", but lots of [rounds the corner right then] [O-oh no I have to drop off the balcony and hang there and hope you don't see my fingers!!])
Thanks again!
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[nods] XD Yeah, taht's my usual way -- I mean, I'm almost always borderline on apps with a few exceptions only, but once they're in I'm just like YOSHAAAAAAA! and-- yeah. XD This is really weird for me. But thank you -- it does make me happy to make you happy!
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