12. [voice]

[guiltapalooza]

I-- I got so used to Spike on here, that I forgot that... that the one in Sunnydale isn't like that. [Willow sounds blank, like she's been strong emotion'd out.] I didn't forget forget, but it's different when you see it and have a broken bottle held to your neck and are stuck hostage in an abandoned factory and, and--

[Her voice breaks and turns

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[pinball_baby]

Broken bottle...?!

Willow? What happened?

[guiltapalooza]

Spike's girlfriend broke up with him. He wanted me to do a love spell to get her back.

I guess he... changed his mind.

[pinball_baby]

Can you even do that kinda thing?

...Changed his mind...how?

[guiltapalooza]

I think I can. I've never done a love spell exactly, but it shouldn't be out of the realm of possibility. Not that I want to! They're way immoral.

I don't know, he went to get the supplies for the spell and never came back, so he must've changed his mind. Buffy said she ran into him.

[betterasshole]

Spike kidnapped you? [Because that's more important than the break-up, of course. She'll get to that in a bit.]

[rudolphofvamps]

Spike of old, pet. Not Spike of new.

[betterasshole]

Yeah I know--I got that part. Exactly how many years ahead of her are you, again? [Not that she'd ever asked before.]

[rudolphofvamps]

Around a decade.

[toreadorabull]

uHH,
wHAT HAPPENED, iS EVERYTHING, oK,

[guiltapalooza]

Physically I'm okay. I cheated on my boyfriend, and he found out. So everything else, not so okay.

[toreadorabull]

oH,
uHH,
wHY DID YOU DO THAT,

[guiltapalooza]

Because I've loved Xander practically my whole life, and he was-- he was there, and we thought we were going to die! And before that, I just... couldn't figure out how to say no.

I was trying to stop it. I never wanted to hurt Oz. But I failed majorly on that one.

[autophoenix]

Okay, wait. Can we back up to the part with Spike and the broken bottle and the kidnapping?

[guiltapalooza]

Spike kidnapped me and Xander to make me do a love spell to get his evil, crazy, vampire girlfriend back. Not future Spike, this Spike. Just in case that, um, wasn't clear.

[autophoenix]

But, future Spike is that Spike. It's not like he's a completely different ... vampire. He's the same, he's just ... older. He still did that to you, it just happened to be a few years ago for him.

[guiltapalooza]

He is completely different - he doesn't "happen to be" anything. The one on the community has a soul, the Spike here, not so much.

For vampires, having a soul is like having a... a Jiminy Cricket. They don't really care about hurting people when they're soulless. I can't get mad at Spike for something he'd never do now.

locked;

[rudolphofvamps]

I'm sorry, Wil. About all of it.

locked;

[guiltapalooza]

It's not your-- well, it is your fault, but like I told someone else, I contributed to the trainwreck. It wouldn't have been a wreck if I hadn't been cheating.

locked;

[rudolphofvamps]

I know all that. I was there. But it's also - sorry in general. That all this happened.

locked;

[guiltapalooza]

I appreciate that, but I don't want you to feel sorry. I think I'm feeling enough sorry for several people at the moment.