Comments | guiltyred: year of the monkey

guiltyred

year of the monkey - i give up

Nov 28, 2016 20:49

It's been a while...again. It's like I can never quite get my feet back under me, and when I do the ground isn't ever solid ( Read more... )

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tirwolf November 29 2016, 04:32:11 UTC

Oh, my God do I hear you. I have a dwindling future and feel very much the same. You kind of wonder why you made your way through what you did in the past just to get here where none of it matters any more and you're battling to make ends meet. With all of my education and background I still have nothing... scary. My sons are looking at a similar wasteland at ages when my life was just beginning. I don't have any words of encouragement for them. Perhaps I don't have the vision to see something more than the tangible in front of me (which isn't much) but I, too, am lost. If I am lucky enough to get a winning lottery ticket, I'll give you a call!

guiltyred December 2 2016, 01:45:27 UTC

And I really thought I was logged in to reply, LOL. It's been that kind of day.

cesmith November 30 2016, 05:27:16 UTC

Millions of people are poor, and millions of people live paycheck to paycheck. The way to happiness is to count the blessings you have, the most important of which is someone you love. I get to retire in 2 years at 62. I will have to work part time until I die to make ends meet, BUT I have someone to struggle with. My Dad once said that any day you wake up is a good day. Live that concept.

As for running away, only a coward does that. People who don't fight for their country and their beliefs don't deserve either. Trump will only be in office for 4 years, a drop in the bucket of time and anything he really plans to do has to pass the Congress and the Senate.

Please forgive me for being harsh, but I get angry when people waste the good they have by fixating on the bad. Life offers so many good and loving experiences so please, Pass them forward.

guiltyred December 2 2016, 01:50:35 UTC

I understand, I really do. I'm just so conflict-avoidant that this whole mess is making me sick physically, mentally, and emotionally. I just want everyone to be able to have life, liberty, and pursue their own happiness, but the bullies have won and I have never had the strength to stand up to them.

Maybe I should take those self-defense classes and see what I'm made of underneath the outward meekness. Honestly, it hasn't served me well, being the empathic peacemaker. Maybe I need to learn how to raise some hell and kick some ass...

Keep inspiring me, my friend. I'm not that far behind you in age, and I honestly don't expect to retire before I die (unless there's a way to get out from under crushing student loan debt, but that's another issue). At the moment I'll channel all my energy into hanging on and waiting for my wife to get safely home for the holidays, then regroup and see how life looks then. Fatigue and loneliness always make the light seem a little dimmer.

cesmith December 2 2016, 03:44:36 UTC

Hugs. I too am a peacemaker. It's my inner hippie that is occasionally at odds with my women's libber. Currently I work with 12 three year olds for 9+ hours a day. I won't physically be able to keep up with them for too much longer, I'm afraid. When I take my Social Security I can still work and earn a salary up to a certain amount each year and still collect. Hopefully my current employer will allow me to work part time. If not, I have cashier skills and can make a perfect Starbucks latte thanks to working in B&N for a year. My imaginary plan is; If my new employer irritates me I can tell them to F off and find another cashier job. It actually makes me smile to contemplate this. My husband thinks I'm kidding. Sorry dear, I'm not ( ... )