I dreamt last night
that the past resurfaced
against my whitewash body
and in the background hummed
a broken record, over and over
I didn't do it
I didn't
Do it
Didn't do it
I didn't do it
but no one listened
too distracted by red on white
they tuned out my voice

Its easy enough for you to patronize me and my sweet, sweet smile ( Read more... )

The Return of December ( Read more... )

some goals for my winter break... one is to clean my closet. another is to go to the gym everyday... im eating better, its just a matter of working off the weight i put on whe n iwas putting on weight, ya knowyaknow ( Read more... )

not only did i get along well with his friends
i really really liked them... they were completeley awesome.

and today i woke up early
for no reason in particular
i feel so much better that i have no more tests to take<3 and i have no school ( Read more... )

Q: whats scarier than making plans with a guy you have a crush on... and hten he says youre going to meet his friend... and then it changes into going to applebees with this said crush and his 2 best friends and their girlfriends?

A: nothing.

wtf. hahaha wish me luck. i get so nervous meeting people, let alone 4 at once. gah.

Oh the fight for power. Never ending. Me against the world. Me against my weakness. But mostly my tamed mind against my untamed. Sometimes i have no fucking control. i HATE it. it makes me feel fucking pathetic. it makes me feel weak. and at any vulnerable opportunity my id ATTACKS! call him. text him. msg him. IM him. This one he'll respond to. ( Read more... )

sometimes people just piss me off
and i cant help but be a bitch
uaoweihfaosidfhaoifdh
leave me alone. ugh.

im really good at driving myself out of my mind ( Read more... )

and can i just add.
that i was hinting at joe (as i have done many times) about making music together
and now we're actually going to go somewhere tomorrow night after reiki
to mess around on the piano and sing and figure stuff out!
omg best night. yayayayayyay =0)