i didn't know that people were capable of having a relationship without having to compromise, change or have irritating doubts and worries. i'm just gonna leave one of those obnoxious posts now (yes, i should be doing a paper but i am thinking about katie) but yeah, about how i love her so much! she makes things simple and makes me smile. what a ( Read more... )

i have pencils, paint and live stock markers. i have a massive sheet of beautiful heavy toothed paper. i've got my sleeves rolled up and i'm feeling crazy. i'm gonna make something huge! watch out.

yeah, you like it like that!

1. KATIE!
2. sex
3. cigarettes
4. coffee
5. pooping after coffee
6. readings for my fem. theory class
7. reduction prints
8. shaving
9. not being drunk all the time
10. getting work done

i think i focus too much on what i lack rather than what i have and this takes something else away, confidence, which is even more denying than the little things i dwell on. i don't know why i am so afraid to go after the things i want. i am intimidated because i feel that everything is too big for me. even though i tell myself this, knowing the ( Read more... )

Would you ( Read more... )

ummm...yeah, so this is another one of those times when i'm supposed to be doing a paper. thanks f_ing napoleon for helping out with the procrastination ( Read more... )

who wants to but a really great tube amp...or some guitar pedals...or a bass...or my body...because i'm still fucken poor even though i got my refund check and have a job. yep, it all went to bills and rent. this is so dumb because i don't buy anything anymore, not even food. i want a second job but it is so hard to schedule around school and i'm ( Read more... )

i'm socially retarded. why can't i speak about what's in my brain.

i just shaved katie's little head! she looks soooo cuuuute! makes me wanna shave mine again...but then we'd look pretty dumb together...lol ( Read more... )