Never wanted winter more.

[guitargrrl]

I've never wanted winter more, with it's silent streets and howling midnight winds. The nostalgic glaze on window panes and the hum of the heater, filling the space with the same heat I'm trying to escape now. Winter makes me feel like I have permission to hibernate with journals and crock pots, instead of feeling guilt for not being out in the

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[myra_musing]

Sorry to read you have been feeling this way due to your medical problems. Sometimes you can fight so hard and do everything right and still not have the success you want to have, and it sucks. It's easy to fall into despair. My mom struggled a lot, too, with not being able to get her body to do what she felt like she should be able to, and had been able to do in the past. She got very depressed and frustrated, trying to do baby steps toward getting back to where she wanted to be, and never made it there. It was hard to watch. I wish now that I had just helped her try to enjoy the little things she could do more. Like making food or doing something creative that was not too physical. She spent so much time stuck in her house. When I came over, I would bring flowers in for her from outside, so she could smell them and at least experience a bit of it. I guess I don't have a ton of advice other than maybe focus on the smaller things you can do, and try not to beat yourself up for what you can't do right now. I do hope it gets better