Its been a couple of days since I slept straight through a night without waking up from strange dreams.  Everytime I fall asleep,  I seem to drop into another one.  Same cast most of the time.  I believe that it has to do with my real life situation.  They reflect alot on things that Im going through.  I cant help but feel that the farther things ( Read more... )

First off,  I think its time to have a little chat.  This how I feel in general about things.  Im speaking from experience or from things that I have seen around.  There are times where i feel I should step in.  But I dont.  Why? Because there are points in life where things must be done on our own.  Im not saying helping others is wrong.  Its just ( Read more... )

Im sitting here on the pc.  Typing.  I can here the clicking of the mouse and sound of keys echo throughout the house.  I wonder what dreams Ill have tonight.  Will they revive a lost memory?  Or will they open old wounds again.  I dont wanna bleed to death again.  I wanna live just alittle longer.  Long enough to see what tommorow will bring me.  ( Read more... )

This time released security
Controlled dose of tranquility
Forgetfulness washes over me
Put to rest the voices of insanity

Only the sinners remain
As another night
Becomes a yesterday

Come on! Anesthetize the panic
It is what drives the weak
You're gone! Anesthetize the panic
Putting all uncertainties to sleep

Not an altered state of mind
But a safer place in ( Read more... )

"So, where on earth did you come from my little mysterious friend?"  I paced back and forth never setting my eyes off what could be the answer to all of my questions.  The storm outside danced around the town as the sun slowing set behind the grey masses of rock.  Street lamps were being lit.  Towns folk had either gone to their homes or toward the ( Read more... )

"Unbelievable weather we're having this month huh?"   I turned my attention to the door of the General Store.  Fred waked toward me as he dusted the snow from his coat.  "Looks like we could be snowed in at any giving moment.  Though I think the storm has maintained it's distance from town."  He passed behind me and gave me a pat on the shoulder ( Read more... )

As  a young lad, I became very involved with the supernatural and the unknown.  Why?  Til this day I know not.  Yet,  there are moments where the answer seems to present itself subliminally.  Hidden in some undeciphered puzzle.  Throughout the nights of sleepless research, I have come to some conclusions.  None of which make sense.  There are no ( Read more... )

Where am I?  Where am I going?  There's something blocking the way.  I cant get through.  So much left behind.  What will I go back and pick up?   What is worth that much?   What is worth another trip back to hell? The hell where that sparkling light waits.  But will I go back and get it.  Will it rot away eventually?  Like I am?  Questions, ( Read more... )

Im drunk as fuck but it doesnt matter cuz I still remember everything.  I know what im doing and I know what im saying so no worries ok?  Anyways I just wanted to say that I feel good.  See ya in the morining k? Love ya all.

I knew Death was warning me.  He warned me with every bullet that zipped past my head.  I didn't matter much to me.  If Death wanted me, he'd have to come and get me himself.  Even then Id still refuse to go anywhere.  The ringing in my ears drowned out the sound of gunshots and screams.  Half way deaf and blinded by the hot sun.  Sitting in the ( Read more... )