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State of Me: I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed. A bit emotionally unhinged despite surgery going well. In the back of my mind, I keep hearing stories about how cancer recurred. And despite being a big cheerleader and encourager for people around me, I'm kind of a pessimist in my own life. There's a reason I liked Squall.
Still the surgery went well. I kind of had a huge emotional outburst which resulted in me being a big jerk. It's not about being right or wrong, is it? It's about respecting the other person in the conversation. Especially when that person is a loved one. I often forget that though and just go with the whole being right part. So it's going to be a long road of patching that up. I wish it were something I could easily explain as I'm just having a hard time with my mom going through cancer and losing my mom is kind of a big fear of mine. Especially after losing my brother. Somehow this conversation is impossible to have though. In my mind, it gets countered with such arguments as "But she came through surgery fine" and "They probably got it all." And from there, it would just degrade into emotion without logic and lots of what ifs and worries.
So there's that. And then looking at all the EPs I want to tag is just making my head spin. I'll probably end up just passing up on all of them. I need the time. Unless someone wants me to tag into something. Feel free to ask.
Squall: He had a lot of plot in July. He was honest with Polly and Zell. And even got to rescue some folks by chocobo! It's Squall though. So despite the breakthroughs and feeling good about those, he's kind of always on auto pilot. Keeping his head down and avoiding life in general. He probably needs another therapy post.
No big plans for him in August, but that can always change like it did in July.
Gilderoy Lockhart: Despite being an extremely easy pup for to me play, he's perpetually the one that's on notice. I feel like I have difficulty getting him out there because he makes such a mockery of everything with his ME attitude. He's on schedule to get HP&OotP so as to find out what happened to him. This will result in a semi-return to normal. Or at least a normal-like appearance. He'll still be living in his newly acquired hut.
Joshua: He's recovering from a cold after Dinoplot adventures. Which reminds I need to put that post up. I don't have any real plot ideas for him this month either. I love him, but I feel like I need to put him down for a little while before I burn out. We'll see. It's all so subject to change.
The Future: I've got Uncle Iroh on reserve. And I LOVE him. I've got half of the app finished, but I'm not sure I'm going to bring him. I'm just having doubts. And I'm not sure what it is exactly. If it's just not needing to make any major decisions right now like expanding my brood. I put him on reserve the same day and right before my mom called to say her test came back with possible cancer. I've just left it alone for now, but I may have to remove him reserve for now and come back to that decision later. I took him off reserve for now.
Still the surgery went well. I kind of had a huge emotional outburst which resulted in me being a big jerk. It's not about being right or wrong, is it? It's about respecting the other person in the conversation. Especially when that person is a loved one. I often forget that though and just go with the whole being right part. So it's going to be a long road of patching that up. I wish it were something I could easily explain as I'm just having a hard time with my mom going through cancer and losing my mom is kind of a big fear of mine. Especially after losing my brother. Somehow this conversation is impossible to have though. In my mind, it gets countered with such arguments as "But she came through surgery fine" and "They probably got it all." And from there, it would just degrade into emotion without logic and lots of what ifs and worries.
So there's that. And then looking at all the EPs I want to tag is just making my head spin. I'll probably end up just passing up on all of them. I need the time. Unless someone wants me to tag into something. Feel free to ask.
Squall: He had a lot of plot in July. He was honest with Polly and Zell. And even got to rescue some folks by chocobo! It's Squall though. So despite the breakthroughs and feeling good about those, he's kind of always on auto pilot. Keeping his head down and avoiding life in general. He probably needs another therapy post.
No big plans for him in August, but that can always change like it did in July.
Gilderoy Lockhart: Despite being an extremely easy pup for to me play, he's perpetually the one that's on notice. I feel like I have difficulty getting him out there because he makes such a mockery of everything with his ME attitude. He's on schedule to get HP&OotP so as to find out what happened to him. This will result in a semi-return to normal. Or at least a normal-like appearance. He'll still be living in his newly acquired hut.
Joshua: He's recovering from a cold after Dinoplot adventures. Which reminds I need to put that post up. I don't have any real plot ideas for him this month either. I love him, but I feel like I need to put him down for a little while before I burn out. We'll see. It's all so subject to change.
The Future: I've got Uncle Iroh on reserve. And I LOVE him. I've got half of the app finished, but I'm not sure I'm going to bring him. I'm just having doubts. And I'm not sure what it is exactly. If it's just not needing to make any major decisions right now like expanding my brood. I put him on reserve the same day and right before my mom called to say her test came back with possible cancer. I've just left it alone for now, but I may have to remove him reserve for now and come back to that decision later. I took him off reserve for now.