i find myself awake, but in a dream. i wait for a season to go, but stand still. i'm chained to the top of a snow caped mountain

10) fighting 50 ninjas
9) free food mmm...
8) counting the bumps on the ceiling
7) changing the oil in my space ship
6) dancing to no music
5) listening to the ice-cream man song
4) fighting 100 ninjas
3) riding a giant polar bear
2) slapping angry carnivores
1) fighting 100 tiny ninjas

i feel horrible today. the week i've had reflects the seemingly endless battle i have with depression. i'm constantly having to explain myself over and over. not only to those around me but to myself too. i feel pulled tight like my rope is ready to break. i need a vacation or a new problem to focus on. whatever happens i just want it to happen

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