Here's the thing. . .guns_n_butterOctober 22 2008, 04:07:57 UTC
I could go into an explanation on why I wrote this and on what was going through my head, yadda yadda yadda. . . but I won't. There is not much point in doing that. I doubt it is going to change what I do on a day to day basis. I think that somewhere deep down inside I just sort of gave up. Do we all know what that means?
Re: Here's the thing. . .jr_beeOctober 23 2008, 03:38:30 UTC
it's a terribly odd feeling, but it's also an honest one.
I remember when I gave up. It was in Chicago, after an EXP exhibition. There was a little snapping inside and I recognized it as an overwhelming inevitability and I gave up.
What I've been trying to figure out ever since is whether or not this represented the big 'give up' or was just a 'give up' along the way.
Either way, I'm a few years in, and the giving up keeps giving. Can't tell if it's good or bad. Don't know if it can be quantified as either, it just is what it is.
Entropy? Perhaps. Apathy? A little. Disenchantment? Maybe, but just as likely 'Acknowledgment.' Reality is not the most pleasant place, but at least it feels intellectually honest.
yeah, ok, but.deleriumOctober 22 2008, 12:11:15 UTC
i thought you gave up in your senior year of college. now, i have comics to read god damn it, and i think you know there's a second issue i'm waiting on. go.
Re: yeah, ok, but.guns_n_butterOctober 23 2008, 23:35:25 UTC
I think your point is right on. You know me a bit too well. All of that being said I feel like this process is taking so long by the time I get things down nobody but the people who have replied to me "giving up" will care about my accomplishments. I certainly feel pretty worn down right now. I am enjoying living in New York but without any of the perks of living in New York. I haven't left my house in two days. This has not led to a huge breath of work but it has been beneficial for my mental well-being.
Re: yeah, ok, but.deleriumOctober 24 2008, 04:36:07 UTC
: ) just need to make sure that while i'm busy talking you up to my friends, something concrete is in the works to back it up. comics is a long and lonely process. ...i think Chris Ware said that. or maybe it was Joe Matt. (effing whiny two-first- named bastard!) miss you -al.
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did you forget to post a link or somethin?
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I remember when I gave up. It was in Chicago, after an EXP exhibition. There was a little snapping inside and I recognized it as an overwhelming inevitability and I gave up.
What I've been trying to figure out ever since is whether or not this represented the big 'give up' or was just a 'give up' along the way.
Either way, I'm a few years in, and the giving up keeps giving. Can't tell if it's good or bad. Don't know if it can be quantified as either, it just is what it is.
Entropy? Perhaps. Apathy? A little. Disenchantment? Maybe, but just as likely 'Acknowledgment.' Reality is not the most pleasant place, but at least it feels intellectually honest.
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All of that being said I feel like this process is taking so long by the time I get things down nobody but the people who have replied to me "giving up" will care about my accomplishments. I certainly feel pretty worn down right now. I am enjoying living in New York but without any of the perks of living in New York. I haven't left my house in two days. This has not led to a huge breath of work but it has been beneficial for my mental well-being.
I'm working, as always, at my own uneven pace.
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just need to make sure that while i'm busy talking you up to my friends, something concrete is in the works to back it up.
comics is a long and lonely process. ...i think Chris Ware said that. or maybe it was Joe Matt. (effing whiny two-first- named bastard!)
miss you
-al.
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