Il me fait juste si heureux.

And he doesn't even have to try.

 I knew that I have been changing... but I hadn't realized how much. They were still holding me back, after all this time. It feels that I'm finally breaking free of it all and I'm just hopin' that I'm right ( Read more... )

 I feel like I'm finally myself... which is weird, seeing as how I'm 20. I'm gonna go with it.

"Cellophane flowers never happened for me.
Been sleeping the day off,
Watching the night fall,
Covering nowhere,
Filling my timeshare.

There's a woman in the mirror in a fiery state,
As she motions to me,
I start turning away.
She's lifting her dress up,
Trying to ( Read more... )

I got a new iPod and her name is Sam... she rocks. Katrina was awesome and I have mourned her. However, I have continued on, but will never forget her.

This week is going to be ridiculously busy... Religion paper has to be done tonight. Wayne St. Interview Tomorrow. 10 pg. research paper that I haven't started due Thursday. UMich Interview on Friday ( Read more... )

"The children the world almost breaks become the adults who save it."
~Frank Warren (of PostSecret)

I just got some call at 1:30am... someone relaying a call to me and wanting me to tell them what I wanted to say back. Some solicitation I assume. Hopefully, this doesn't become a pattern.

The first decision letters for Tulane and Georgetown start going out tomorrow. I hope to get Tulane's early next week and Georgetown's won't be here until mid-late November. I've got an interview at UMich on Nov. 30th, which is pretty encouraging. Northwestern and UMich are probably the hardest schools to get into that I applied to. I'm just hoping ( Read more... )

This is for me, I just needed it to be available to be read.

To all of my friends now: I forgive you for not hating me after I've done the things I've done to you. I forgive you for all being better people than I am. I hope I can start earning the right to have you in my life. I'm sorry I'm not there for you and I'm sorry that I won't let you be ( Read more... )

I listened intently to everything you said and the one thing that I can't stop thinking about is just one little word: Trauma. That word.. that title. It eats away at me. That word means that everything is not okay. It means that I should feel something. It puts me in that category. That category of people who go to meetings and tell 'their story' ( Read more... )

And it's 5 o'clock in the morning.

All I do is wait for everyone to disappoint me.
You would too.

"Where is the coastguard?
I keep looking each direction.
For a spotlight, give me something,
I need something for protection,
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine.
The jetsam sunk, I'm left behind.
I'm treading for my life believe me.
How can I keep up ( Read more... )

"Won't you cure my tragedy?
Won't you cure my tragedy?
Don't take her smile away from me,
She's broken and I'm far away.
Won't you cure my tragedy?
Won't you cure my tragedy?
If you made the world a stage for me,
Then I hope that you can hear me scream!

I can't take this anymore.
I can't feel this anymore.
Won't you take and give her pain to me?
' ( Read more... )