I am... EPIC FAILURE.

[gunsmoking]

MY POST OF SELF-INVOLVED, ANGSTY OOC ISSUES

Writing this up for myself, mostly. Suggestions are most welcome. This isn't very interesting, anyway.

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[makeitdouble_d]

I can't speak for anyone else, but I know I'm kind of the opposite, much more social online than offline...and even then I fail a lot.

I know some people know each other offline too... and I can share the envy of not knowing people as well as they do, but as far as I know people are just bonding over common interests? I... really don't have any advice, just sympathy and I feel the same at times. I tend to talk OOCly with people I tend to thread with a lot, as there's that bit of familiarity though.

[whodoucheyou]

I LOVE YOU DON'T LEAVE ♥

I have nothing helpful to say other than I love you and you're funny and awesome.

[thesuzukimethod]

I. Had two paragraphs of pointlessness written up before I thought better of it and decided to summarize.

UNNECESSARILY LONG STORY MUCH SHORTER, you are awesome and wonderful and probably still interact with a lot more people than I do or ever will don't leave uuuuussss T-T.

[patria_ou_mort]

I used to have a problem (and, really, still do, to a much lesser extent) with both online and off-line relationships where I felt that while people were nice to me, they didn't like me nearly as much as they liked other people -- as though if people were asked to rack their brains and list every single person whose company enjoyed, yeah, I might show up on some of those lists, but if people were asked to list, say, their top 5/10/20 (it depended on the size of the social groups concerned) friends, I wouldn't show up anywhere.

And really... if I thought about it, yeah, as I mentioned before, I still do have that problem. But the main thing is that, to a large extent, I've stopped caring. Now, I mainly frame things in more of a "Do I enjoy this? Am I having a good time?" sort of way. Because the larger the number of people having fun is -- and yes, you, yourself, are included in that count -- the more fun things tend to be for everyone

[gunsmoking]

I really don't like gchat, though, and tend to forget I even have it open. Which is just another way of missing messages |D;;

[patria_ou_mort]

...that reminds me, I should sign into gchat. |D

Really, Yahoo instant messenger is my saving grace. My internet connection hates... uh, the internet, so while I usually can stay connected for extended periods, actually doing things while I'm on is another story ahaha. (Sometimes it will take me close to an hour to get gmail to load.)

[alexander]

I feel this way too. I haven't got any advice for it -- because I still feel this way a lot. There's like a very small amount of people that I feel comfortable PMing or even shooting an email to and I dunno. So many people are older players or are HILARIOUS and I always feel like an outlier or outsider.

I... I wish I had something to say for advice, but all I can give is "omg I feel this way too D:"

And, mildly tangentially there's the 'if I dropped would anyone notice'? Which. Sounds kinda dumb now that I write it out I guess :/

[alexander]

And to add to it! I've always thought of you as someone hilarious and well loved and and stuff ♥

[gunsmoking]

It's sort of a self-defeating attitude, but yeah, I feel all "outsider"y, too.

D:

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