Comments | gusterbrown: i don't know what to say

gusterbrown

i don't know what to say

Aug 23, 2005 00:24

Well, well, well. The first sign of this actually being slightly different from Brandon's games. I have actually met someone who has verbalized that they don't know what to say. It's enough to allow me to sleep well tonight. I am just so disappointed in myself for letting another young person so deep into my heart. I don't know if I regret ( Read more... )

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k9soul August 23 2005, 17:38:39 UTC

Kari, I hope you're having a better day today. I wish there was something I could say to help ease the pain, but there isn't really. You must be having so many conflicting feelings right now. I can only say to just give yourself time and don't expect too much of yourself, i.e. getting over Ben quickly and moving on. I think you'd really get a lot out of that book I've mentioned in my LJ, Embracing Uncertainty, as it seems to mostly focus on acceptance and helping to "let go." I have been reading it for the second time and have really gotten a lot out of it again. Take care of yourself, Kari.

gusterbrown August 23 2005, 23:27:41 UTC

Hey, thanks, Jessica. I'm doing a lot better than I did with Brandon. I've been through this already with him, only I had a lot more invested in that relationship. The only difference in this relationship and that is the fact that I truly believed Ben was ready for a committed relationship. I honestly never believed Brandon was. But, for the most part, it's just a matter of breaking the habit. It only really hurts at night, when I'm accustomed to talking to him. Now that I'm hardly worth a few text messages from him, it helps me realize that we didn't really talk that much anyway. I mean, we did a lot at first, but, it was all me trying to see what kind of person he was. Asking a lot of questions, that type of thing. Once I stopped probing, I discovered he didn't really have a lot to say. Which sucked, because all I ever wanted to hear was about him and his day, and, his life, and all that. Again, though, it really only bothers me when I'm home at night. But, I'll be fine without him. That's not to say that I don't hope he'll change ( ... )