A mess

[guttercake]

I've been sober for over a month now, and although I'm the happiest I've been in a long while (10 years+), there's still something missing... my love of almost 4 years. I finally get clean and we're the happiest we've ever been and yet we're broken up (newly). I don't want to know this hurt, because it's one I'm dealing with sober... I sit on my

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[mamablotto]

sober heartache is the worst. i'm thinking of you.

[guttercake]

Thank you, I'm sure many know this kind of situation well, for me it's new and very painful. I know I'll overcome it, but slowly... and its the not knowing when I'll get over it, and what will happen because of it that frightens me most. <3

[fluffbutt]

Hey sister, good for you on all the quitting and please stay strong.
I know this may sound weird, but when I look back on my really awful break up, I am happy I had the experience. It was awful and so scary and my heart literally ached and I would sob to strangers and I was so outside myself. It all around hurt. It also did not help that we lived together and it threw me into a big mess of bouncing from place to place.
But I will say...it was pure. It was so, so pure and I feel I understand so much more now.
Also, try to stay distracted. You are going through so much. Write and read and sleep and talk. Just keep it going strong. love.

[guttercake]

finding this comment helps a lot, 2 months later, probably more now than then. Thank you so much. I appreciate you.