So, I've had a bit of an up and down few weeks, perhaps a few more downs than ups. In the span of three days my now ex-boyfriend left for Army officer training on the other side of the country- he will end up being stationed on the east coast as well. Then I was told the gym I was working at had no hours for me, and the sports center that was my ( Read more... )

Ever since I had that falling out with my "friend," I've noticed something. After about two days of being distraut I've felt a lot better than before we had our spat. I feel a lot better without his judgementalism, which I could sense even when he said he was not upset with me ( Read more... )

So I went to see my boyfriend for the first time in a couple of weeks, and finally paid him back for the skydiving trip (man, I wish that I had gone skydiving again before the deadline to not have to re-take and pay for the class). Anyways, we've never kissed, and I haven't kissed anyone in a really long time (basically, there was a lack of worthy ( Read more... )

I guess that the title of this post is a warning enough. It won't be what people like to read. It will be whiny, and self-critical, and all of that other junk. And you know what? I don't care. I'm tired of pretending that I'm something that I'm not. I can't do that anymore. I cannot act like I am only the happy, silly half that can be ( Read more... )

I will finally be moving into an apartment, or at least away from here, by July 1st ( Read more... )

I really need to learn not to overreact to things ( Read more... )

So, looking back over all of my entries, I noticed a bit of a trend. My first several entries were more or less cheerful, and for the last month or so they've been rather depressive, which got me thinking about how much of a difference just a little bit of time could make ( Read more... )

Ever since I got home from my grandmother's this last Monday, I've felt strange emotionally. Or maybe I should say that I've not felt. I've been so numb. It's like I'm not capable of any strong emotions right now. In fact, aside from a general sense of emotional pain on occaision, I haven't felt anything much at all with the exception of rush ( Read more... )

Okay, that scared sunshine icon is just way to sad, so I have to post something happier to balance it ( Read more... )

So, yeah, I'm not exactly sure what I'm gonna write about, but whatever, that's why I call this journal my ramblings, right ( Read more... )