Lost then Found 10/15
Chapter 10:
Kurt blinked his eyes a few times, then rubbed them to make sure he wasn’t seeing things.
“I’m real, Kurt.”
“What are you doing here, Dave and where’s your husband?”
“I don’t have a husband, and can’t a guy come see his best friend
and tell him he was right and that he was an ass for not believing
him?”
“Really? What happened? Did Sasha remove her skin and show her scales?”
“More like she approached me with a prenuptial agreement that
said when four years was up, or when he became mayor of New York City,
whichever came first, he could divorce me and/or have as many affairs as
he’d like without financial repercussion.”
“Are you serious?”
“Yep. And when I approached Lance about it before the wedding, he
asked me ‘What? Is the financial compensation not enough for you? I
thought two million dollars at the end of four years was more than
enough considering you’re only a hockey coach from Ohio.’”
“And?”
“And I laughed in his face and asked him if the only reason he
was marrying me was because he wanted to be mayor of New York City.”
“And he said, ‘No, I find you quite pleasant.’ No, ‘I love you’
or ‘I can’t imagine spending my life without you’. Just an ‘I find you
quite pleasant.’ Needless to say, I ripped the prenuptial agreement up
and stormed out. Then Carole and Burt found me outside and asked me what
was going on. I told them everything and they simply hugged me and told
me I was better off without him.”
“So, you came all the way to Ohio to tell me I was right?”
“Well I went to your apartment and you weren’t there, so I then
went to the theater to see if you had gone in for rehearsal, and was
told by Rebecca, Patrick, and Stephanie I could go to hell for what I
did to you. I finally had lost all hope when Finn called me and told me
you had come back to Ohio and to get my ass on a plane and to quit being
a pussy.”
“Finn would say that.”
“So here I am, asking you to let me come in, so I can talk to you.”
“Fine, come in.”
Kurt stepped back and regretted that he was wearing a pair of
raggedy sweat pants and an old ratty Rolling Stones t-shirt from Finn’s
closet. He was swimming in it, but he was comfortable.
“Sorry for looking so crappy. I just woke up.”
“You look fine, Kurt.”
Kurt watched as Dave blatantly checked him out.
“Okay, just stop, Dave.”
Dave blushed as he knew he had been caught.
“Stop what?”
“Stop checking me out hours after you broke up with the supposed love of your life.”
“I was wrong.”
“Wrong about what? Checking me out?”
“No, about Lance being the love of my life.”
“Right, you say that now after you broke up with him.”
“I knew it even when I said it, Kurt. I was just terrified.”
“Terrified of what?”
“That you loved me. I know it sounds stupid, but come on, Kurt.
I’ve been in love with you since high school. We both know that you knew
it then, and you pretended not to. I spent years waiting for you to
wake the fuck up and realize that I was the right guy for you. Not
Blaine, not any of the random manwhores you slept with, and certainly
not Luke. But you never did, and then you started blowing me off. I
realized we were growing apart and it was time for me to quit pining
after you and hoping that one day you’d realize how good we could be
together. So, when you randomly spring it on me that you’re in love with
me, I wouldn’t let myself believe it. I wanted to so badly, and the
night we made love, Kurt, I was so close to running to Lance and
breaking it off, but I had been on the other side of your one night
stands too many times to count, to know they often don’t mean anything
to you. “
“That night meant everything to me, David. Everything. I told you
I loved you. Do you realize I have never said that to another man? Not
even Blaine. I’ve been in love with you since the day you brought me
those flowers in college. I think I’ve always known what we could have,
but I was scared too, Dave. I was scared you’d wake up and realize I
wasn’t good enough for you, that you deserved someone less bitchy and
dramatic.”
“Kurt, I love that you’re bitchy and dramatic. I love that you
force me to take off my shoes whenever I step foot in your apartment, or
that you call and remind me not to kill Finn when he’s lost his badge
or gun yet again, or that you call me and tell me to set my dvr to some
new show you know I’ll love, and I always do, or that you send me random
ass YouTube videos that make me laugh when I’m in a bad mood. Kurt, you
are my best friend, and you are also the man I’m in love with. I fell
in love with you because of who you are. Why would I want you to
change?”
“You love me?”
“Of course I do! Why do you think I put up with you all these years and got so mad when you moved on with Luke?”
“You were jealous of Luke?”
Kurt was still trying to wrap his head around the fact that Dave
was standing in his parent’s living room in Ohio telling him he was in
love with him.
“Duh. I mean it was quite obvious to everyone, including Lance
and Sasha. Sasha threatened me this morning with a stiletto through my
eyeball if I dared to mention your name today. When I walked out of the
wedding, she was screeching at me that my reputation would be ruined and
that I’d lose my coaching job at McKinley.”
“Wow, that girl is all kinds of crazy, and not in the tolerable kind like Rachel.”
“Sasha is definitely not a well woman, but Lance knew that I was
in love with you and didn’t care. He told me he figured you and I would
hook up on the side and I’d be married to him and help further his
political career. And when we were done, I’d get some money and could
marry again for love. What an idiot I was.”
“You are not an idiot, Dave. You are not an idiot for falling in love.”
“I don’t even know that I was in love with him. I think I used
him as much as he used me. I mean he was also rather pleasant, but it
was never easy and it certainly wasn’t what I had always imagined as
being ‘it’ for me, you know?”
“Yeah. Luke and I were making out one night…”
Dave cut him off, “Kurt, I really don’t need to hear this.”
“Yes, you do. Just hear me out. Like I said, Luke and I were making out and we were so close to having sex, “
Dave’s face blanched as Kurt continued, “But I couldn’t go
through with it. I tried valiantly, but no matter what all I could think
was, ‘It’s not Dave. It’s not right.’”
Dave’s face showed signs of relief.
“You didn’t sleep with him?”
“Nope. After I slept with you, I sort of lost the desire to sleep with anyone else. How stupid is that?”
“It’s not stupid, Kurt. Do you realize how long I’ve been waiting to hear you say that?”
“Say what?”
“That you’re done sleeping with random guys.”
“No. How long?”
“Since the first time we had lunch in college.”
“Well, I’m ready now, are you?”
“Am I ready for what?”
“To be with me?”
“Is that an invitation to have sex with you?”
“That’s an invitation to have sex with me, love me, be with me, until you get tired of me, or one of us dies.”
“Don’t you think it’s a bit sudden?”
Dave was grinning at Kurt,
“Don’t joke about this, Dave. I’m pouring my heart out here!”
‘Fine, yes, I’m ready, Kurt.”
Kurt let himself smile then for the first time since he had seen Dave.
Dave walked over to Kurt, the look in his eyes scared and excited Kurt at the same time,
“What are you doing, Dave?”
Dave didn’t say a word and simply grabbed him.
Then Kurt was being kissed thoroughly. Dave’s hand was in his hair and at the small of his back pulling him close.
Kurt couldn’t help but reach out and grab Dave to pull him close as well.
When they finally came up for air, Kurt’s lips were swollen and his pulse was racing,
“What was that for?”
“That was for all the years I wanted to grab you and kiss you senseless.”
“Well if you had, we might not have wasted so many years dancing around each other. So, what happens now?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean you are going to stay in Ohio, and I’m going back to New York. What happens with us?”
“Well, first I think we should continue kissing like that, ‘cause
I definitely approve, second, New York and Ohio aren’t that far apart,
and there’s always Skype. We will make it work.”
“Are you sure you’re ready for us to be together?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean you almost married someone today, you just got out of a
serious relationship? Are you sure you’re really over Lance? ‘Cause I
don’t want to be your rebound guy, Dave. I am in love with you, and I
want to be with you, but I will not be able to handle starting something
and then have you decide there is someone better for you.”
“I could never think that, Kurt. Never. It has always been you.
Since the first time I realized I had feelings for boys, it was you. You
were the standard to which I compared all guys I met, including Lance. I
thought Lance was a good replica, but he wasn’t you. We have a chance
to be together, and we would be idiots to let it pass us by.”
“I’m just scared of hurting you and ruining this. Cause I’m not
perfect and Lord knows you know all my flaws. I still don’t know why you
wanted to be my friend, let alone love me.”
Dave tipped Kurt’s face up to look at him,
“Listen to me, Kurt. I love you and I can’t explain it, but I’m
tired of denying it. I just do. I don’t want to live without you and I’m
not perfect either. We both hurt each other and refused to admit what
we were really feeling. I can’t do that anymore, can you?”
Kurt shook his head, his wide eyes brimming with tears,
“I just, I don’t want to wake up and this not be true.” Kurt’s voice cracked as the tears spilled down his face.
Dave wiped the tears from his eyes,
“This is very real, Kurt. And I’m not going anywhere. If you
think we should take things slow, then we will. I’m not going to tell
you that it will be easy, but I will do it.”
Kurt couldn’t believe this was happening. His heart was singing,
he was trembling, and all his thoughts and emotions were tumbling around
and through him. He couldn’t help but laugh breathlessly.
Dave looked at him with a look of confusion,
“What’s so funny?”
“Nothing. Everything. This is just so surreal. Do you realize how
many nights I dreamed you would tell me all this stuff? And now that
you are, my brain is having a hard time processing it.”
“Well, I was gonna say, this is the first time I have ever seen you talk so little. I’m impressed.”
Kurt pretended to be outraged and slapped Dave on the chest, “Shut up, asshat. I’m being serious here.”
“I promise I’ll be good. Really.” Dave smiled facetiously at him.
“You are incorrigible.”
“You love it.”
“I do. God, I love you.”
“You can call me Dave, and I love you, too.”