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I'm sorry. I was in pain a few days ago when someone linked me to the girl's entry and I was already in a bad mood when I read most of the stuff.
I don't think I've learned my lesson at all. They were saying negative things about the friends I talk to everyday, and even wanted me banned for having too many RP journals when half of them were from old dead RPs but still list just in case I wanna recycle a journal and keep track.
I really tried not to say everything, but their complains were just so... They made me pissed off. I shouldn't have said anything, but I did. And now everyone is assuming I'm some racist white girl who hates African Americans.
Maybe I should have made an intro post earlier...
I'm Mari, and I live in Oakland, one of the most segregated and dangerous cities in the entire nation. I hear the N-word every single day, and even hear other races use it in front of African Americans without them being offended. They even use the word themselves, and we're even used to reading the word during class in our English books. My best friend is an African American. This is us, and as you can see, I'm Mexican.
I guess I'm used to hearing the word, along with the other word "wetback". Maybe I don't understand the concept about how bad the word really is, but I think everyone has different views. I don't say the word. I never say the word publicly. I never typed "nigga" in talesofdressing. I don't play the character who said it.
But I want to apologize for getting involved. I'm sorry that I don't understand common sense and didn't stop myself from what I did. I guess I really can't help it.
And I'm apologizing now before I lose any friends. I'd rather not have to lose any friends for a misunderstanding. I was only upset with the poster for talking behind my friends backs and proposing a petition to kick me out of a dressing room because of the number of journals I have. I only wanted to know where "racism" came from since I haven't seen any racism at all in the dressing room except from the word that Colette said who came once and left months ago.
I'm sorry. I really don't like being called a racist. But I do have different views. They may not be the right views, and most of you may not agree with me... but I don't know.
I don't know what I'm talking about anymore. The point is I'm sorry.
I think I'll be taking a hiatus if this stupid wank keeps up.
I'm going to be locking this to prevent anons from coming in. I need to take a nap. If there's something that needs to be said, please PM me...