I want to go to Moody sooooooooo much. It makes me sick. Erik's going to be in Chicago! He needs me. OK well not really but clearly we were meant to be near each other for the rest of our lives (until I go to Africa or something). Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I'm having a breakdown.

Mmmmm. I wish I could do the prayer labyrinth every day. It's the best thing ever. It's an 11 station guided prayer journey, and it's really fantastic. Takes like 2 hours. Involves burning candles and drawing pictures and a lot of fun things like that. Em and I did it up in my room... and my candles left pools of melted wax all over because they ( Read more... )

Wow so... crazy stuff. Friday night at the prayer meeting I had asked for prayer for my problem with not loving people, at school and such and for being so angry with them. Then last night as I was struggling to fall asleep God was like "Pray for your classmates" and I was like "Maybe later" and then I tried to sleep some more. Suddenly I started ( Read more... )

I can't stand school. It's wretched and people are wretched. I am so sick of the things I have to hear, and see. People tell me God doesn't care what we do, He just wants us to enjoy our time here on earth. They ridicule Him and blaspheme and make me absolutely sick. It hurts me so much, and I just want to scream sometimes and tell everyone how ( Read more... )

There's a little girl I help sponsor named Yosi. She lives in Indonesia. I'm terrified that we'll get a letter telling us she is no longer in need of support because she's dead. I wish I didn't have to graduate from high school. I would be over there in a heartbeat. It kills me not being able to do anything and having to see the newspaper headlines ( Read more... )

I love Compass! Yet again I've experienced the horrible bittersweet feeling of having an amazing time with my incredibly cool friends and then having to leave them (or them leave) again. It's wretched really. But Dan and Teresa are still here, so along with miss Emily we're gonna party it up again tonight. Yesterday-today was awesome. We played ( Read more... )

What on earth is my mother's problem? Why does she do this? I think her favorite game to play must be "make Courtney feel as bad as possible for as many things as I can even if they aren't all her fault". And it's not a fun game when you're Courtney. It's like she throws EVERYTHING I've done wrong in my face along with things I didn't do wrong and ( Read more... )

My car is dead. Crap. Hopefully my dad can bring it to life when he's done showering. It died when I was trying to take it to the shop. Ironic eh? Couldnt get out of where I'm parked. Urgh. I was gonna go paint the church for a while but noooo now I have to save my dumb car. Bleh. Then I have to work for 5 hours. That OK with me though cause I'm ( Read more... )

Merry Christmas Eve everyone! I am very excited about Christmas because it's wonderful. YAY! Yesterday was a weird day. I watched Oprah, and the whole show was about South Africa and all the stuff they're doing there. And I watched it and I cried because it was amazing and if everyone could help just a little the world would be so much better. But ( Read more... )

Life is good kids, life is good. Just returned from church painting for a couple of hours. It was awesomely fun. Today I had an interview at Gordon which went quiiite well if I do say so myself, which I do. But it was heartwrenching to be back at Gordon. I felt empty, like something was missing. That something was Compass. It was a depressing time ( Read more... )